lone warrior ace

what to do?

2012-02-14T00:55:00.000-08:00

成也因人好，败也因人好

Really busy and what the fuck is wrong with me?

2012-02-10T09:08:00.000-08:00

Seriously, in the recent months, I think about half a year already or slightly more than that. The design work never ends and I don't seems to have a time to rest for a while. It's tiring as hell, I need time to rest, to think and reflect, to train.

Also, I realized and perhaps many of my friends noticed something, I've been very cold towards relationship. It seems that I don't even care about relationship anymore. In a way, it's kinda true. Of all the things that I due with, relationship is the only thing that I can't get myself to be positive about. I think that's because the constant failure and heart breaking moment I had before. I want to avoid all these all together and seems that the only way to do so, is not to get into relationship at all. In fact, not even falling in love AT ALL. I know it's very extreme to say so or do so because of the failures I had. But I had enough of the heart breaking moments, it hurts way too much. Especially the most recent one, which create such a great impact on me. Imagined a person that you loved very much, turns out that she doesn't love you like how you loved her. That's what happened to me. Although I think I still hold onto a glimpse of hope, thinking that there will be a girl appearing soon in the future that would change my life. Despite having that glimpse of hope, I am very skeptical of such girl's existence...Seriously, what do I want? Do I want love and be loved, or do I want to avoid love? I don't know the answer myself.

2012

2012-01-09T07:40:00.000-08:00

Recently had been too busy with so many design work, hardly have time to do something about this blog. Since now I have a bit of time for a while before shit got serious again, I decide to do a resolution for my 2012 and recap of 2011.

Achievement at 2011:
1) Recovered my knee
2) Got into army news, prevented my media skills from disappearing inside my mind.
3) Wrote a few stories, which might be able to work for my future short film

Since I'm in NS, there are so many things that I wanted to achieve but in the end didn't. Getting my knee a serious injuries also contributed to the lack of achievements I planned earlier of 2011. Now let's look at 2012.

2012 New year resolution:
1) Getting into this year's taekwondo tournament and get a gold medal
2) Train my martial arts into a whole new level
3) Get into lasalle or any uni to study film
3) Film more work piece for myself.

Honorable mention:
Getting a girlfriend

My friends would have noticed, "getting a girlfriend" no longer in the resolution, now it's just an honorable mention. I think after that incident, I had no more expectation for my own love life, it has been a mess and I doubt it will change. Instead of brooding over it, I shift the focus to somewhere else, like my career or my martial arts training. I think that's also a good thing, allows me to focus on something. Although saying that, getting all the achievements but no one to share the joy with, it's definitely sad, depressing and lonely. Of course, I still want a girlfriend who can share my joy and burden, but I don't have much or any expectation for this anymore. Lonely? For all I care, at least I can tell myself "I've achieved what I wanted for myself". I can tell people that I've done what I wanted and achieved, I've succeed. Some people for all their life, they don't know what they want. Even if they know, they don't know how to approach it or how to achieve it, worst still, don't even work towards it.

I know, I seems to be escaping from my relationship failure, that failure affected myself permanently and negatively. But I think that shift my focus, so all in all, still pretty good.

Recourse

2011-11-26T09:29:00.000-08:00

whew, one more week and I'm done with recourse. Come to think of it, it's exactly one year since my surgery on my knee. It's not completely recover yet, but most of it was recovered already. But, not without any weird kind of after effects. Hope it doesn't affect my martial art journey in the future.

fluctuation

2011-10-23T08:01:00.001-07:00

It's damn irritating to have fluctuation, 2 things in particular. My weight and my capabilities in martial arts.

My weight always go up and down, despite I did nothing to affect it. I eat normally, bowel movement still as good as ever, whole bunch of vitamins and other minerals. My weight still goes up and down, what is fucking wrong with my weight?

Then there is my martial arts standard. Sometime I can punch very fast, sometime the speed drops. I really hate that my punching speed drops. My kicking also fluctuates a lot, some time can be high and fast, some time it's just simply like shit.

Fuck! Please, stop fluctuating, I didn't do nothing to affect it, so just fucking stop.

May be I should...

2011-10-06T05:16:00.000-07:00

May be I should finally put a full stop to everything I did and doing, let god do the judging and decisions. I'm not sure 100%, but I think from the stuff that I did and the sincerity, I think most girls will be touched, just don't know why it doesn't affect you one way or another. I decided, I'm just gonna be your friend, if fate exists and we are meant to be together, one day we will cross path again and walked together as a couple instead of a friend or brother/sister relationship.

For now, I'm just gonna stay focus on martial arts and prepare for my career and/or uni studies. I also realized I might be able to do the 360 spinning back hook, will continue to work on that. I also realized that my palm strikes are ridiculously stronger than my punches, gonna work on that and hope to develop something that suits me.

So long never do a movie review, hope will be able to fork out time to do a review soon.

Really, what should I do?

2011-08-22T04:08:00.000-07:00

To tell the truth, I really thought through to give up on this and then wait for the right girl to appear. But who knows what lies ahead of me? I don't see myself to be as happy as other people, as in I won't have the happiness of being a boyfriend, husband, father or grandfather which most other guys outside there have the luxury to have. One very simple reason, my passion for martial arts had went beyond the level of hobby, it's part of my life. I even think that people can don't like me, hate me or betray me, but martial arts won't. I don't know if there's a girl outside there that accepts this life of mine, so far I also don't know wen yu will accept me or no, I wish she will, really wish... I guess I just continue to train, whether will there be a girl of my life to appear, I don't know...

武学是我的生命，但是我的生命却需要一个意义，这个意义，我还在寻找。。。真希望我生活上的意义就是她。。。。

武术界的悲哀

2011-08-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

在现在的中国武术界，人人自己打自己，追求无谓的以武术作为金钱交易的产品，最糟的是很多年轻人练了实战性不大的现代武术。可能是1966年的文化革命，中国为了走进环球市场，把传统武功变成现代武术。现代武术几乎毫无实战价值，可悲的是年轻人都被现代武术的花招给蒙蔽了眼睛。在国际的武术界，中国武术被认为是废物武术，这也把低调的传统武术给扯进来。其实传统中国武术有非常强的实战性质，但被现代武术给盖过了光芒。我认为中国武术界应该有一个能站出来，把中国武功的实战性质带给全世界，让中国武术也能在全世界有一席之地。

一些所谓的武术名师其实也是因为他们把中国武术界搞地乌烟瘴气，把武术当成产品卖出去，一些老师的武术课可高达数百块一堂课。我认为这也是非常不当的。早期的武术名师，几乎都不向徒弟受学费，只是要徒弟把武功给传下去。其实武功/武术是华人的文化，是全球武术界的顶峰。但是这些害群之马把中国武术弄得乌烟瘴气，实在是悲哀啊。。。
中华武功竟然被人说得一无是处，这时更该有个武术大师出面，为中国武术争一口气。在这一百年间，有好多位武术宗师把中国武术让外国人闻风丧胆，又让外国人敬佩不已。叶问祖师，霍元甲前辈以及黄飞鸿前辈等等，都是把中国武术的实战能力展现出来。现在的中国武师只敢纸上谈兵，实战经验也不足，当然难和外国武术斗。就算有传统的武术名师，大多只练套路，不练实战，以致不了解很多招式的实战应用。

我认为现在的中国武术训练法应该要有更强的实战训练，散打并不算在内。因为散打不是武术，是类似拳击的运动，一种取他人之长，补己之短的运动。散打甚至可能取他人之短，补己之长，这就已经失去了中国武术的特色。当然，散打的实战性能是不容置疑的，但是你在街上使用散打，没人看得出是中国武术。

虽然有电影人把武术搬上荧幕，使中国武术无人不晓，但也有人误解了中国武术的真正性质。武术始终是技击的方法，没有技击法的武术不能称之为武术，只能叫舞术，这也是武术界的悲哀啊。。。

what has the world come to??

2011-07-31T01:41:00.002-07:00

这个世道是怎么了？

当男人花心时，女人老是投怀送抱，让自己受到伤害。
当男人真心一片的时候，女人却避而远之，伤害男人。
当男人心已死时，女人才发现男人真的是爱着女人，但男人心已死，不想再爱，双方受伤害。

如果双方都爱着彼此，为什么要玩 hard-to-get 的游戏？让双方猜个不停，双方却又不坦白说出答案？我不知道她爱我吗，但是我非常爱她，也不会玩hard-to-get的游戏。她呢？我不知道，她好像很喜欢玩hard-to-get。不管多久，我都会爱她，只爱她一个。

What is happening to this world?

When the man are flirting with every girl he met, the girl always like to give in and then got hurt by such flirting man.
When the man only love the particular girl, the girl always avoid and hurt the man instead.
When the man already gave up on love, the girl realized that the man truly love her, returned and then both party got hurt.

If both party love each other, why play hard-to-get game? Letting each other to guess non-stop and avoid to say out the real intention or the true answer. I'm not sure whether she loves me or not, but I'm very sure that I loves her. I won't play hard to get and certainly will be there for her no matter what happens. For her? I'm not sure whether she loves me or not, but she sure like to play hard to get. No matter what, I loves her and her only.

Sudden thoughts

2011-07-08T09:14:00.000-07:00

Don't know why, suddenly I don't feel the need of love in my life any more, since no girls really give a shit about how I felt. So that means my life only will have training, fights and career. Actually not that bad either, can concentrate on what I want to do.

Really don't know where to voice this out but here

2011-06-13T04:20:00.000-07:00

*sigh, amazing that after 3 years, I'm still stuck at loving you. Most guy would have given up in 3 months, although there is a side track, but I lasted 3 years. All these years, I had been waiting for you and still waiting. I don't know why, I just believe that you are the only one for me. I don't see in the future, me being with other girls. I held that strong will for 3 years, although it's tiring, but I'm still holding onto it...

After so many turns and merry go round....

2011-04-25T04:02:00.001-07:00

After so many merry go rounds, I realised that it is you who I truly love and no one can ever replace that.

Idiotic decision

2011-04-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

After watching the new "A chinese ghost story"(I will put on a review about this movie soon), I gave a lot of thinking about my relationship.

Ever since the meeting with salmon, I never thought that I will have such a strong feeling of love towards her. So strong that I can't shift that love to other girls that came into my life, before or after her.

I know salmon treated me as a brother and I treat her like a sister, like how we did that for the past. I realized that the feeling I had for her can never be a brother-sister love kind of love. I had been thinking about it, almost a year, whether I can shift that love to other girls or not. I realized it's not possible. I also thought about whether I should just leave her and put myself into other relationship, I also realized that I can't do that. All because the feeling is just way too strong for me to do so.

After watching the new "A chinese ghost story", one of the character inside actually spent almost the entire life protecting his lover who lost the memories about the guy. The feeling of love portrayed in that movie is very strong. So am I going to do that same thing too? Spending my whole life waiting for that slim chance of me being together with her, or to protect her from whatever harm that's coming into her way? To some people, I might have been overly matured, but in relationship, I am not. In fact, I could have said that I am very idiotic about it, I always make stupid decision and illogical decision. But since when love is smart and logical? I'm not sure how to put it, but I just hope that this love is a pure one. I'm making a very great amount of effort to make it a pure love between me and her, but most of the time, I think it's just me loving her. I don't know if she really think about the both of us...I think I will make that stupid decision, she's the only one for me and I'm making it that way. Even if we can't be together, I'm keeping her in my heart and protecting her from whatever.

perhaps....或许....

2011-04-20T08:23:00.000-07:00

perhaps I still love you, waiting for you and willing to accept you even now....I don't know, am I an idiot to do so? May be I am willing to be an idiot for you only...?

爱一个人。。。

2011-03-09T11:07:00.001-08:00

爱一个人好难，好累也好痛。周围的朋友不是成双成对的，就是已经有了心上人。我，一介武夫，立志成为一名导演的我，却没有女孩喜欢。很多朋友告诉我，要做个好导演，人生的任何一个经验都要有。我能说几乎什么经验都有，就是没谈过恋爱。

22岁的我，孤单的我，自从纹妤离开了我的人生，我仿佛失去了笑的能力。我的人生从新回到了无穷无尽的黑暗，回到了没有光明与希望的黑暗。朋友说我必须自己走出来，我曾经走出来过，但我是被打回黑暗的。我现在很希望喜欢的人能喜欢我，带我再次走出黑暗，得到希望与关怀，人生再次有光明，我会再次有笑的能力。。。看来这永远只能是个梦，一个实现不了的梦。。。

All the words that has been inside me

2011-03-02T04:21:00.002-08:00

I'm seriously very tired, I always have problem to solve, difficult to face and no fruits after all the shit I had to go through. I hate myself being the one that always doing the work, I hate myself unable to talk, I hate myself unable to communicate and socialize. All these shouldn't be happening to me, but the situation proves me wrong. I don't have high expectation of my life, all I want is people to accept who I am. I just want to do the things that I like. 事与愿违，things really aren't going too well for me.

I am a person that been through hell that no one can ever thought out, I bet a lot of people are going to say there are worse hell than mine. I don't blame them, because they didn't go through the mental torture like mine. I blame myself for being weak, all these won't be here if I was strong back then. I grew up and matured faster than the kids of my age. The adults said it's good to have kids matured fast, more understanding towards parents. But that was in their view, in my view, I had lost friends, childhood and gain discrimination from the people of my age, this continues till now. Yes, all the early maturing does made me more well prepared for all the hell thrown at me in the future, but what I experienced now is all the discrimination and mis-understanding from the people of my age. Why? I just want to be accepted...

I never once had a girlfriend and no one believe me. People around my age had at least got attached once, but not me. Especially now being in NS, my NS friends asked me whether I had a girlfriend or even been in a relationship before or not, I said no and they don't believe. I know some of you might say "it's nothing, being single is good too", think again. I already don't have much friend and not many people understand me, if I had something happy or unhappy happened, who can I share to? The burden on my back had been so heavy that it's already crushing me, no one understand and willing to share my burden. I want to be in a relationship because I want to be happy for once, I want to share all my feeling, someone to care for me at least once. I'm not like those typical guy outside there, who seek sex in a relationship. To me, inner feeling is much more important that sex or whatever.

I just want to practice and learn more martial arts, it's a very simple wish. Just like people just want to jog, play basketball or swim, it's a passion. But for some reason, people disregard the people who practiced martial arts and treated them like some freak. Seriously, what's wrong with practicing martial arts? We are just a normal person that specialized in that area, but why are we labelled as freaks? Worse thing is even my own parents don't understand me and the passion of practicing martial arts. I seriously got tired of all these...

Sometime I just wish I was never born or I'm just all alone in the mountain and live there, no one to bother me and nothing to worry about...

Another sad chapter of my life

2011-01-30T07:06:00.000-08:00

Nothing in my life is a good thing, all the shit thrown to me at all possible things. One thing that I don't have which is positive is financial problem, but that's all. I don't have anything that other people have. I got no childhood, no luck, no love, no career, nothing, I don't get donkey shit. Think I'm being negative, I summarize everything I had.

1) No childhood, never play or had fun with the children of my age.
2) Don't have friends until poly time(which is only positive things I had)
3) A lot of career opportunities slip through my fingers.
4) I got injured at the time when my name was up in the list of being a CCI
5) I never had a gf before and no one believes me.
6) The only girl I love treat me as a brother.
7) No one understands me.

So you think I'm being negative, think again. Yesterday just add on another chapter of sorrow and sadness to my life.

2011 is here

2011-01-01T01:29:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of 2011, let me get the greeting off the list first. Happy new year, wish everyone's wishes be granted and a smooth year ahead. Well, with that off the list, let's see what happened in 2010.

Positive encounters:
1) I got "promoted" from an assistant trainer to a trainer, which means I got higher pay.
2) My students like me, both from my work and martial art class.
3) Got another batch of students to learn martial arts.
4) Went to china and had my sight broaden.

negative encounters:
1) I got rejected by wen yu for the second time or may be the second and a half time. Although she did considered me before, but she still thinks I should be just a brother to her and there she goes, a sister and brother relationship.
2) My knee injury doesn't seems to recover as good as I though and I also was made to injured my meniscus to be so serious injured that I need to go for surgery.
3) My job was all over singapore, eating up my money to travel.
4) Unable to go for taekwondo tournament and my 2nd dan grading because I was going to enlist when I want to take part those 2 events.
5) Don't get to enjoy myself before my enlistment.
6) Sort in a depression when I got enlisted.

So that's all that happened in the year 2010, seems my life was pretty blend and also bad for the year 2010. Let's see what I hope to have during the year 2011.

1) Get enrolled into a uni and study the art of film.
2) Get a gf(I don't expect much about this already)
3) Get my leg recovered.
4) Go learn brazillian jujitsu and karate.
5) Go back to all my martial arts training.
6) Smooth ride for my NS life.

That's all for the first post in 2011, happy new year again.

Surgery's over

2010-11-27T04:01:00.000-08:00

Just had my surgery yesterday, now my right leg got this metal brace to support it. Can say that walking is impossible for me, how I wish I can walk again and then go back to train...

Depressed, depressed and more depressed

2010-10-31T01:59:00.001-07:00

This is by far, my most depressed period in my entire life, it can be on par with the time when she said that to me 2 years ago. Every weekend when I booked out, I realised there are so many things to settle, there are so many more burden being put on my shoulder and many more problem arise once a problem was solved. What is happening to my life? I used to be in full control of my life, now my life being controlled by other people?

Ever since 26 of aug, my class faced the crisis of closing down, my right knee injury got worsen and I still can't walk properly for 1 month plus, possible starting of my career as a movie director blown, what else can there be to make my life worse? Oh, how about losing someone dear to you a week before? That's great...

Now, I spent my weekend dwelling in my own sorrow and depression. I need someone to bring me out of this abyss, I need something to help me solve all my problems, I need some methods to heal my leg. I don't ask for more, I just want my life to go back like what it used to be. I don't know if I can continue long enough or not.

Something inside me is changing, growing. I don't know what it is, but I can feel it and it's something negative. What is it......?

Going out

2010-06-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

It has been couple of days since the last time we went out, to tell the truth, I am very happy with it. I mean really happy...

For so long, I had been wanting to go out with you, just you and me alone. I wished for it, but it never once came true until that day. We went out to watch movie, just you and me alone. Throughout the movie, I don't really think much about the movie but you. It is because I got out with you and I am really happy with it. After the movie, we head straight back home. I can be very sure that I sure bored you, I am very sure of it. But I did try my best to make sure that I can talk normally. I was so nervous and tried to talk to you until when we boarded the bus. I tried to make some joke, but can't think of any. Then I think you should get a relax, I showed you annoying orange and you laughed. Very true that I am even happier that you laughed and smiled, my heart was filled with relief and happiness when I see you no longer stressed.

Although this is the first time that we went out together, I am very happy. Really...

wooden dummy.

2010-05-27T08:59:00.001-07:00

I feel that I need more to train, I think I'm getting myself a wooden dummy irregardless what my mother said. Nobody can stop my training.

I won't stop loving you

2010-05-04T05:22:00.000-07:00

*sigh* my brothers had been telling me a lot of stuff, my own blood related brother, bing long, boss and bunny. All of them are telling me to let you go and to let myself go, given other people a chance to love me as a couple. They even go to the extend that you are a bad news for me, you are wasting my time and yadah yadah yadah.

To tell the truth, initially I did give this a thought, to give up on this relationship between you and me, look for a better girl. But I can't, because of one very simple reason, I love you too much to let you go. I don't know what happened to you in the past, but what I'm thinking now is to make the present and the future as happy as possible.

Before meeting you, my life had been colourless, I don't know how to smile and I don't know what is the meaning of being happy. But when you came into my life, everything changed. I smiled everytime when I see you, I found a meaning to live in this world, my life is no longer colourless, because you bring in colour to my life. No matter are you hurting me or not, I am loving you as always. Anytime and anywhere, you are in my mind...

Future venturing

2010-04-03T05:29:00.000-07:00

I had been thinking a lot during the trip in Beijing, especially the last day of training. Why? Because I accidentally trigger the injury on my right leg. It's vey minor, but still induce pain for the next few days. Then I had been thinking, more on when I got back to Singapore. Do I want to sacrifice my leg to be a good performer instead to be a good fighter? I definitely learned some routines in wushu that allows me to find better, but strickly speaking on got shaolin staff and drunken fist. Drunken fist I speak alot of time to get it into a practical fighting system for me, but the rest are not. The broadsword are quite useless in a fight, it's not that you can't find broadsword anymore, but the moves inside is useless.

Wing chun is not wushu, it's kungfu. Wing chun is a very practical and stylish style of fighting system.

Summarizing what I know can be of practical fighting system, it's taekwondo, wing chun, drunken fist and shaolin staff.

So what about the future? What styles will I venture into? I had no idea, but I had a few in mind which I want to venture into. There are 'baguazhang(八卦掌)', judo(could be japanese or brazilian, depends), aikido or karate. The chances that are higher are baguazhang, judo or karate. I'll see what fate will bring me into. Oh yeah, forgot to say that shaolin style, I'm also interested in venturing into. Haha, ain't I a martial arts craze?

Life

2010-03-29T05:13:00.000-07:00

I'm wondering what is the purpose of my life? No, I don't mean th career aspect of my future, I roughly got the idea what I want as my career in the future. I'm referring about the love aspect of my life.

For 21years of my life, I never hold a girl's hand before, I never kiss a girl before, in fact, I never had a girlfriend before. I don't know what's wrong with me, I really want to know why my love aspect of my life sucks so bad?

May be in the past, I'm a nerd and home is the only place i will go to after school. May be it's because I don't have much friends. Or may be it's because my personality sucks?

For so long, I don't have much friends, I don't have someone to share the burden with me nor I have someone that I can really rely on.

My love life had never been good before, I'm always so lonely. I know this might have been said for a lot of times before, but I just have to say it again and again. Do you guys know what is the feeling of going out alone? What is the feeling of walking the path of life alone? What is the feeling to do something you like such as watching a movie alone? What is the feeling of crying and laughing alone? It was so lonely, empty. The feeling of lonely got so strong that sometimes I felt that I was devour by this emotion called loneliness.

May be some people know the reasons of why I practice martial arts. I idolized ultraman and Donnie yen, I was afraid of being weak, but those are not the true reason. The true reason is that I want to fight of the feeling of loneliness. I thought I won't be so lonely if I devote myself into getting myself stronger and better in martial arts. But I was wrong, in fact, I felt even more lonely everytime I got stronger. There is no one there for me to fight for, no one to train to protect for. Sometimes I think through in my mind. What will I be even if I become the strongest martial artist in the world? I'm still a lonely asshole walking on this earth.

So it all boils down to a question, what do I want in my life? love or a lonely martial artist? I don't know, I got too deep into martial arts now, it's impossible for me to quit. But do I want to sacrifice my love life for that? I really don't know....

Wen Yu, until I met you, that was my mindset. Now, I got a reason to fight, I got a reason to train hard. It's because I want to protect you, I want you to feel secure. I'm not like the other guys out there who knows speak but knows no action. I love you, I wanted to be beside you. Can I do that?

No topic

2010-03-06T05:27:00.000-08:00

I don't know, I've always wanted to tell you that how much I loved you, but didn't get the chance. I always wanted to go out with you, but never had the chance. Sometimes I wonder why am I always so busy about? It's not like I got a family to raise, I'm just single. In short, I want to say that I love you a lot, I really love you, can you accept me?

Mask

2010-02-03T17:34:00.001-08:00

A lot of the times, people wear mask to fit into a specify clique that they want to stick with. Some times people don't wear mask. The irony fact is that people can accept people that wear mask but not those that do not wear mask. It is true that people who don't wear mask are more reliable, but they are only disposable tools for those that wear mask. Those who don't wear mask are normally loner. They are pure at heart, but people don't accept them nor be friends with them, resulting them to drown in their own sorrow alone.

Sigh

2010-01-27T07:50:00.000-08:00

Today is another day that I can't chat with you, that really made me pissed off at myself. Why am I so useless? I love you, but I never once said it to you. Sometimes when I want to tell you, things happen. It has been one year, throughout this one year, I realised that I still love you even though you sort of cheated me before. Even my friends said that I'm stupid to still loving you after all these and after one year. But what to do? You are my only love, no other people.

What should I do?

2010-01-22T05:09:00.000-08:00

I got this mixed feeling, good and bad feeling. Couple of days ago, I dreamed about her, I remembered that dream very clearly. She finally said "yes", me and her finally got together as a couple. Not only that, I remembered that she kept repeating that she loves me, about 3 times. After that, I woke up. The moment I woke up, I was already in deep thinking mode. I scared it might be a premonition about bad stuff, but I also heard that dreams is a premonition about what's going to happen. I don't know, I really don't know. One thing's for sure, I really loves her, I really do. I never once love a girl so deeply, so deep that I don't put other girls in my mind nor my eye. She's the only one that gave me such strong feeling. I wanted to love her as much as infinite, I wanted to protect her from every harmful stuff. But, does she loves me too?

hm..

2010-01-17T03:07:00.001-08:00

I felt happy just talking to you, I smile just by looking at you. Can we really become a pair?

New year

2009-12-31T08:27:00.000-08:00

Today marks the first day of 2010 and the first hour of 2010. For my first post of 2010, I will put down my new year resolution, this year, it would be a shorter one.

new year resolution 2010:
1) Be with you and love you forever.
2) Train even harder in martial arts and hopefully will become stronger than who I am now.(in terms of practical fights)
3)Get into NTU.
4) Stay healthy
5) Loving you.

love

2009-12-21T17:29:00.000-08:00

Love is a topic that no man can really find the true answer to it, but human never stop to look for what is true love. Different people got different thinking about love and also different way to approach it. For me, love is something so complex and simple that it's not easy to understand. For 20 years of my life, I had been searching what is love and stuff(this doesn't happens until 6 years ago when I had my first crush). Until I fall in love with her, then I realised that those that I had crush before were nothing but illusion. Those crushes, I only say I like them, but nothing more than that. For her, I say that I love her. Love is really profound, all I want is to see her smile everyday, I don't want to see her sad or down. I want her to be happy. During that time, that is what I thought. Then something happened, I was very sad, but one thing for sure, I want her to be happy no matter what.

Love is when you want that person to be happy, even though you are not the one doing it.

Ever since that incident, I put myself deeper into martial arts. I thought martial arts can make me feel better, make me forget you, make me forget that I once loved you. I trained hard, day and night, getting stronger and stronger everyday, trying hard to forget you. After sometime of doing so, I thought I had forgotten the feeling, I thought that I had loved you before. I was wrong, I haven't forget you, I haven't get over you, I still love you. How ironic, I tried so hard to forget you, tried so hard to not love you. But all it takes is just a simple word from my friend and it unlocked the seal that I put on the love for you. I never once loved someone so deeply before. Every girl that comes into my life, I just straight away compare them with you and found that you are still the better one for me. My good friends always asked me to think through, "you like her this much?". I can say straight away without thinking: "I don't like her, I love her". That is my feeling for you, love.

Love, is when even though that person might hurt you, you still care for them without reason.

I don't know whether you can see this or not, but hundred percent for sure, I love you. I want you to be happy. I want to see you smile. You got a choice to love me or don't love me, I got the choice to love you or to love you even deeper. Can we love each other as a couple?

Lacking of sleep

2009-12-17T05:25:00.000-08:00

Crap, so many things come at one go, I hardly get any sleep. Especially the FYP is so tightly in terms of the time we had, I can't get a day off without working on it. With all the stress from FYP, I also had problem with my leg. It's chip fracture, which means a part of my bone was chip off. It's either I remove that chip or I just leave it alone, depends on what the doctor will decide. Also, I just went for my NS checkup. Take up a lot of time, but finally get it done. But yet I need to go back there 3 months later for another appointment because of my leg injury. How crappy is it? What I need now, is to get a smile from you, a love from you, that would make my stressing day to lighten. Can I have that?

Could this finally come true?

2009-12-11T06:59:00.000-08:00

May be my close friends knew it already, but I'm going to say it over here. Things happened, life goes up and down. I'm not sure whether me and her are now going up the slope or not, but apparently, it is...at least I think it is. I sure hope things will work out, she is the only one that stands in my heart for this long even though so many things happened. I...only love her.

Finally got it straighten

2009-11-24T03:47:00.000-08:00

After 2 weeks on bending the leg, I can finally make my leg straight again and able to withstand a certain level of impact. But still, the jumps in the training is still out of the formula and which means I have to wait for some more time in order for me to regain the ability to jump and kick with my right leg. Damn, how I wanted to go train, it is an unholy of terror that I can't train with whatever reason it is.

Got injured again

2009-11-10T22:16:00.000-08:00

During last training, I somehow injured my right leg when I was preparing for next month's competition. I did a normal "er qi jiao" and surprisingly able to jump, kick and land with the same leg, which is the right leg. That was for the first time I able to do it, but it is also the cause of the injury. I heard a cracked sound the moment my right leg landed on the ground and I fell to the ground immediately. I limped to my seat with the help from patrick, soon after the training, I went to see a chinese doctor. The doc said it's a normal sprain, thus should healed pretty quick. This 2 days I had trouble walking, today finally got the ability to walk properly, but still looks like limping. I think I have to just take a rest before my right knee go haywire again. Again like early this year, I found myself still loving her as always. I wonder does she loves/likes me too?

Screwed up competition, but preparing to the next one.

2009-11-07T02:52:00.000-08:00

Just now was the IVP competition, it was my first wushu competition. I had high expectation on myself and also others' expectation such as from coach and her, how could I let everyone down. It was the nervous that caught me in the competition, I slipped the cudgel off my hand for a bout 3 times and I fell once in the competition which is not a very good result. How could I make such mistakes? I didn't have those when I was practicing, so how could I did all those mistakes? I really hate that feeling, I felt like an idiot and retard after the whole competition. Crap, fuck, ass. But I can't do anything now, since it is over already. But this is also a good experience for me, this is to get me prepare for a fairer competition in the December and that I will not make any mistakes such as what I did today. I will succeed!

Something has happened again

2009-11-05T18:17:00.001-08:00

I always thought that I had forgotten her, I always thought that the feeling for her already being sealed away for good, I thought hope already given up on me. Who would have know that just a single sentence from my FYP team mate can bring everything back into light. I thought I had forgotten her, but I didn't, I still remember her. I thought my love for her had been sealed away for good, but I actually still loves her. That was not the end of everything, recently she did a series of things that actually gave me hope that may be we can be together after all we had gone through, but is this hope a real one or just a illusion? I don't know, I just hope I can find the answer soon.

Injured again

2009-10-29T04:36:00.001-07:00

Recently I got injured again, but it is not the new injury, it is old injury. I went for the accupuncture for 3 weeks already and finally able to walk normally, but I still can't jog nor jump. So that means the training is not in the formular. I wanted to train so much, next week competition so more, I have to train a bit more.

closing in

2009-10-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

I shouldn't talked about the video "amigo" that I've made recently, as most of the people already watched it. Plus, not many people visit my blog, those who had, already watched the video. Anyway, the video was a success, I got a lot of good response from the viewers, the rating was high and the view reached 270+ within a few days since the upload, which isn't possible for my previous few video. I guess the story is nice and the fight scene are much better now. Even wendi praised the fight scenes, I was delighted and motivated to make a better one.

Anyway, I haven't talked about the title. Yes, the day of the competition and the performance is coming close. This is the first time for me to go on stage and perform and to go in front of the judges to compete with other people. May be the feeling of competition will be similar to the one that I had when I'm having my grading, but who knows? The performance, what I hope is the success.

Now I'm brain storming a new story for the new short film. When will it be filmed, I had no idea, but I hope sometime in this semester. This is a new break through, because I need to clone a person and make the 2 fight using after effect, but I'm not sure whether it can be done or not. If it is, it will be another break through of my short film.

*sigh

2009-09-27T07:58:00.001-07:00

I lost the direction of life once more, the same thing was happening again. What I feel now is my meal of life is a plate of shit.

wushu performances

2009-09-22T04:59:00.000-07:00

Last saturday, I went out to meet eileen, bing long, ah keong and meng yeow for the 8th national wushu display. I had been waiting for that day to come, to see with my very eye, the skills of the wudang and the shao lin fighters in action. We are seated at the first few rows, which means we got a very clear view of the performance. There are students from local schools, china coaches teaching in singapore, china nation team, our nation team, er mei, wudang and shao lin. You can say that all the good stuff are gathering at the stadium.

I shorten a bit, our national teams was under my expectation, I thought they are a lot better than what I think. China coaches and national are as usual, very good. Those moves are totally crazy and they can jump real high. Especially the guy wit hthe broad sword, it's so damn fast. That is the target of mine.

Then there is er mei, a bit out of my expectation, not as grand as I thought, but still good. The shao lin is just way too cool, they showed a lot of fists and moves, even the golden mask. That was totally out of a normal people's mind, real fantastic. Here comes the wudang, they got real heat packed in them. They can be fast and smooth at the same time in a fight. Also they got this formation, oh, it's 2 formations. From what I can see, the formation can be used in a real fight. All the fighters are very synchronised and know what to do in the formation.

The following day, I go out with bing long and keong for another wudang performance in istana park, which is the same thing as the previous day, yet still nice to watch it.

I got a numbers of video, I will upload it and then let you all take a look at it

After all the performances, I got motivated to train harder to reach taht kind of standard. Be it the modern wushu or the traditional, I want to excel in that.

Guilty

2009-09-09T07:49:00.000-07:00

Just now was asked to go find my tkd coach, because today I was not there for the training, I didn't take up the class. At the same time, I kept pestering coach to let me go for the advance class training on friday. So coach called me down and had a talk with me, about what I want. They said that I didn't attend the training as usual as compared when I was a coloured belt, wondered will I also be like the past few black belts that suddenly disappear without trace. After hearing what they said, I got really guilty of what I did. It's true, I did have a thinking that I can slack a bit after I got my black belt. But in actual fact, I have to comit more to the class that I will be handling. From now on, I will focus on the classes more than ever and will hold on to it.

Some negative feeling

2009-09-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

There are times where I feel like giving up a lot of things. Love, money, status, everything. Call it aftermath or whatever, ever since the incident with josphine, I had a lot lesser confident in myself. I always feel that I can't do things right and heaven are telling me the same thing, I cannot do things right. Let's make an example of today's incident. 2 of my actors cannot make it to the shooting, one of them left to malaysia without tell me so, that really pissed me off. There are more to come, I couldn't find the battery for the camera, it's either I left it in the IG room or I lost it, hindering my process of the shooting. This doesn't ends here, I asked 3 person to help me out beind the camera, but all 3 of them couldn't come. So because of the battery problem, I have to wait till next week before I can get to shoot the video. The problem with the shooting is that dialogue scene don't take too long, but it is the action scene that will take the longest time of the shooting.

That is just the video shooting, there is more. After so many days of training, I've yet to be able to do a kip up, which is you jump back to your feet when you are lying flat on the ground with your back. I got real pissed off, why couldn't I do it. I got the feeling that I am on the air and it's just to raise my upper body and I can complete the action, but I just fall back on the ground. That's real bullshit.

When talking about love, that is where I'm afraid of. I'm afraid another reason like "I just want to be friend" or "I treat you like a brother to me". I cannot take another impact like that, I really cannot take it anymore. Sometime I'm still wonder is there really such thing as love for me(I'm referring to BGR)? I really don't know, may be the heaven are telling me "ok, you shouldn't go into BGR because we don't want you to." If that is the case, please let me born an idiot or something that will make me don't have any feeling. I don't want to go through the same hurtful words again and again, I cannot take it anymore and any longer. I rather go to shaolin and train there, never come back to singapore anymore.

*sigh, hope everything will turns out ok.

I found it in my email

2009-08-25T08:11:00.000-07:00

Something that was in my email inbox for sometime, think that it is ok for me to share with the people reading.

第一句

　　如果我们之间有1000步的距离
　　
　　你只要跨出第1步
　　
　　我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　
　　第二句
　　
　　通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
　　
　　才是真正爱你的人
　　
　　第三句
　　
　　付出真心　才会得到真心
　　
　　却也可能伤得彻底
　　
　　保持距离　就能保护自己
　　
　　却也注定永远寂寞
　　
　　第四句
　　
　　有时候　不是对方不在乎你
　　
　　而是你把对方看得太重
　　
　　第五句
　　
　　朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人
　　
　　第六句
　　
　　就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie
　　
　　第七句
　　
　　真正的好朋友
　　
　　并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
　　
　　而是在一起　就算不说话
　　
　　也不会感到尴尬
　　
　　第八句
　　
　　没有一百分的另一半
　　
　　只有五十分的两个人
　　
　　第九句
　　
　　为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
　　
　　为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
　　
　　为你的难过而难过的
　　
　　就是那些　该放进心里的人
　　
　　第十句
　　
　　冷漠　有时候并不是无情
　　
　　只是一种避免被伤害的工具

大家也许你就是其中一个,暗着心里想想看吧.什么是你该做的,什么是你该接受的.

Official

2009-08-18T09:01:00.001-07:00

Although a bit slow in telling you guys this, I'm officially a black belt in tkd now, very happy. wow!!!

Evaluation on love

2009-07-21T06:41:00.000-07:00

Ever since the incident with her, I got a lot more insights on love and life. In the past, I used to think that love is the purpose of life and believed it. Me and her were used to be like a couple, but now is a brother and sister. After that incident, I think that I should devote myself in martial arts and work. Build up port folio and skills on film making, increase my martial arts skills, now that is the sole purpose of my life. I hope I can find the love of my life, but who knows when would that be, I hoped that time will come, but I doubt that I will have a gf even in my 30s. For now, what I can do now is wait.

Taekwondo grading, final one to black belt.

2009-07-05T06:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my final grading, once I passed that grading, I will get my black belt. Wow, looking back at the time, it has been 2 and a half years since I first entered my taekwondo clun, time sure flies. So when I go there and wait for my row to start the grading, I feel like I am going to take O level again. I was so nervous about the grading, there are 3 graders sitting in front of you and see you doing your pattern(套路 in wushu and kata in karate) and 3 rounds of sparring. The sparring I'm not afraid, in fact, I looked forward to it. It is the pattern that I am nervous, scared I will do good in it. Thank goodness it was pretty ok. Then here comes the sparring, everyone will spar with 3 different person. I didn't spar for don't know how long already, but I sure don't get nervous over this matter.

My first opponent is a guy in his 30s, pretty built. I was wondering whether I can take him on or not earlier in the day. But here he did something that I wasn't expecting it. You know the bruce lee shout "wata!!!"? That's what he shout when the examiner shout junbi(ready in korean, sounds pretty similar to Japanese). I was like "huh?", but soon I also get into my en garde position. To my surprise, his kicks was like slow motion to me. To other people in the eye, it might be pretty fast, but I see it as slow motion. He fight 100%(I guess, based on his aggressiveness), but the strength isn't there and definitely can't cath with my speed. I basically dodged and blocked all his kicks, every single one. I land a couple of kicks on him, but the most devastating will be the reverse kick in the head. Head! God, we are not supposed to aim at the head level, let alone I hit him in the head. Thank goodness I didn't use too much strength in the kick, just plain skill, or else it will be a serious case. One minute passed, we changed opponent, this time is was a smaller built guy. His kick are pretty swift, but was still a slow motion to me. I blocked and dodged all his kicks again, then I used a jumping side kick, got him on the ground. I at first want to link up to a jumping back thrust, but he was already lying on the ground, too bad. 1 min over, change opponent again, this time is a tall guy. I already wasted too many energy on the previous 2 fights, I focus more on the countering this time. Which means, I block one time, hit at the same time. I got this guy in the head again, damn. I do a double front kick using the same leg, one at the lower part of the waist and the other one in the head. I was like shit, another time? Good thing it is not hard, or else sure got problem. Finally the ring rang and that is the end of my sparring and yesterday's grading. Something happened at this moment, very shocking and surprising. Everyone looked at me and start clapping. I mean the entire stadium with the people taking the grading as well. I was happy in the heart, but too tired to express on my face or movement.

There are few things in common during the sparring.

1) I dodged the kicks by jumping:
A lot of the times, I dodge the kicks by jumping/hopping away from the opponent and cause them to miss the target, which is me. Also one thing, I think I jumped a lot higher and further, may be the training in wushu paid off. Thanks coach.

2) I blocked the kicks if I can't dodge it:
I blocked all the kicks, only if I can't dodge it or I need to do a counter. All the blocks worked and all the kicks are blocked down.

3) All the kicks are like slow motion to me:
It's either me being too observant and fast or they are just really slow. I can read the muscle movement of the kicks. I got once I was doing a 360 jumping front kick, I saw the leg of the opponent start to move, I was thinking "damn, his leg is going to come up, am I quick enough to dodge it?" All these happened in the split second when I was in the air. If it is me being too fast, that still is the result of the wushu training, thanks coach.

4) I was real calm when I fight:
For real, I was so calm and confident that I walked towards the opponent without my guarding position. Because I can blocked the moment before the leg hit me. How I walk? Those who watched kamen rider, especially kabuto will know how stylish and calm kabuto fight. He just simply walked to the opponent and then attack and that is what I did.

I felt real good with the clap, make me think that I fought real well. In short, the entire sparring, I was a total ownage machine. No one touched me, in the sense that kicked me. I felt so good after sparring, I just love it. Now I just have to wait for the result of the grading.

Tired

2009-07-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

Today, I sort of like having a mood swing. I got angry on everything for no reason. For the entire day, I was like real pissed off. Then during the 6P, surprisingly, I was so sleepy and tired that I fell asleep while faci standing beside me. It is real surprising, because I was always the most active person in the Digital video and audio module, this week I got so tired. It is because of the FYP, I feel like a few days never sleep and was totally shag. Despite all the hard work and effort, faci said that he didn't see the effort in us. I was like "did you see my fucking eye bag and dark eye ring? Did you see that I dropped a lot of hair ever since the starting of the FYP?" Add on to that, one of my team mates just keep disappearing, add my workload to myself, I was so tired of all these. Hopefully the next FYP will be the best of my work.

Training camp

2009-06-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

It had been about 2 or 3 weeks after the training camp then now I start to update, been busy with the bloody FYP, only if it is not stop motion animation. Ok, back to the camp thing. First thing, 4 stupid things I've done at the first day of the training camp. I forgot to bring my charger for PSP, run back home from CWP and get it. When I was half way to school, I remembered I forgot to bring the camera. When I go to take bath, I realised I brought a hair conditioner instead of a shampoo. Lastly, when I thought I forgot to bring a slipper, I realised it has been in my bag all the while until the end of the first day. That was real bad. First day of the training camp, first thing we do is the stretching. President(identity protection) want us to increase our flexibility, thus a lot of stretching. A lot of the year 1 are unable to reached to a higher level at first. Then the year one start looking for their "master" to learn either their preferable weapon routine or the fist routine. Until the end of the night, we had been training. Too bad that I don't have a student, that's sad.

2nd day, the first morning, we focus again, more on the flexibility and the jumping capability. When we reached 2pm, we started teh san da training, a chinese kick boxing. I did train under taekwondo for sparring and kicking, so facing the target and the opponent isn't difficult. The difficult is the fist, it has been so long since I used my fist to hit something, a bit not use to it. At the end of the 2 to 3 hours of san da training, my hand is literally shivering, that's real shiok, I love training. Then we got a wrestling game with the president. At first I do not know why the president can win so many people, after many matches and observation, I realised he was holding the inner portion of the body, it's real difficult to explain in words, go refer to wing chun for answer. And that's it, I realised the correct way of winning him, I told the technique(based on the knowledge of wing chun, I trained in wing chun) to rong bing, he uses the technique, yeah, he did gain a bit of upper hand. But still, he is unable to pull the president down, but he also avoided being thrown, which is a good thing. That proved that my technique is correct and workable. Then we had the dinner and a little of stretching and then we went to sleep.

3rd day, we woke up at 6 and went for a jogging and stretching again and again before we go for breakfast. After the breakfast, everyone was so tired that they are unable to do any more work out. Literally, everyone of the trainees. President told us that we can sleep till 10 and then pack up and go home. After all these training, finally it's over. I love all these training, it benefits me a lot. After dismiss, we went to help out in wan ling's FYP sensory test. After the test, we waited at the next door, chatted and watched video while waiting for wan ling to finish everything. When wan ling finished, it is about 7pm already. We went for dinner and then go home.

Shopping with the stars

2009-06-14T05:25:00.000-07:00

We had been talking that we need to go out and shop for some clothing, like a lot of the stars don't have much things to wear. So one day, we decide to go out and shop at far east after the training on the last friday. We went to my parent's stall and had our lunch/dinner first, then we head to far east via the bus no14. When we got there, we start to walk around to see what we can buy. Overall, wan ling bought the most, eileen bought a dress and one more thing which I forgot what it is, I bought a black long sleeve shirt. After that, it is too late to shop as a lot of the other shop we closing, so we went to subway and had some chat before heading home. I will make a short music video based on the 6 stars pictures soon, just wait for it arh. Next post, I will talk about the wushu training camp.

Feeling a lot better.

2009-05-31T06:06:00.000-07:00

It has been 2 weeks after the incident. I can't say I am hundred percent ok, but I am a lot better. I've seen through somethings during this period, I know that love can be decieving, even though the girl show that she cares for you, but it might be a different overall. Now, alvin try to ask me to get into another relationship, he said that she is not good enough for me, ask me to go woo another girl. It's not that I don't want, it's just that I still cannot forget about her. Sometime when I was alone, I will start to think about her. Although the pain is not there anymore, sometime I feel that I missed her. I already know that I cannot be with her, I can only be with her as a brother, nothing more. I need a bit more time for me to get into another relationship.

能这么容易忘记一个人吗？ Is it very difficult to forget someone?

2009-05-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

今天到跆拳道训练，心想会不会遇到她？如果遇到，一定要装冷静，不能表现出伤感。誰知她没来。我还想说太好了，至少不会尴尬。当我看着训练场，就想起我们在那一起欢笑，玩乐，多好。现在呢？彼此尴尬。想到这时，我就非常难过，眼泪就快流出，我还是得把眼泪往肚里吞。世上真有不会被破坏的约定吗？世上有天长地久的爱吗？我不知道，但是，我知道我无法忘记她，因为我爱她，却无法再爱她。因为她已找到她爱他而他也爱她的男人。我只能像个大哥一样，在旁守护她，却无法在一起的男人。咳，情为何物？

Today I went to the taekwondo training as usual, I was wondering will I meet her at the training later. If I did, I got to stay cool and not showing my hurted emotion. Who knows that she didn't turn up for the training. I was thinking at least we won't be in an awkward situation if she came. When I got to the training ground, I remembered that the time we spent together over there. We laughed, joked, chatted, played and walked home together at the same spot. At that time, we are not in such a situation. When I thought of that, my tears almost flows out, but I cannot cry, not when training with the coaches and the kids.

I wonder is there unbreakable promise? Is there eternal love? I don't know, but I know that I couldn't forget her. Because I loved her, yet cannot love her any more, because she found her fated lover. What I can do is to be a big brother, protect his sister. But I couldn't be with her any more.....Someone please tell me what is love?

How I wished to do that....

2009-05-18T08:56:00.001-07:00

This song explains this post and what I feel better than any words now.

Kao Jin 靠近 - Sam Li Sheng Jie

Still cannot forget about her...

2009-05-17T07:51:00.000-07:00

This is the 3rd day ever since she said that she wants me to forget about her, I'm still in shocked from then. I cannot forget her face, her smile, everything about her. Although we didn't go out much, but I treasure every moment I spent with her. I still can't accept the fact she had to be gone from my life, I still unable to accept. My heart still hurts when I go through the messages I and her exchanged, the friend finding website(facebook etc) that we had, worst is when I saw her picture. I cannot helped but felt hurt deep down in my heart. I felt all these because I love her, I didn't tell her that. I regret didn't do a lot of things, I didn't share her burden, I wasn't there when she was sicked, I didn't tell her that I loved her. Why am I such a pathetic guy? Why has it going to end like this? This is the worst I've experienced. Rejection is ok, but getting a bf without telling me? I will feel better if she were to tell me when she got one. It really hurts when I found that she got a bf....

I cannot described the pain in my heart. All I want is to share our lives with each other. I'm not a guy good with words, but all I can do is to be with her when things got worst....All has been returned to nothingness, I cannot do anything about it anymore. No more promise, no more beside her, no more....

Supernova

2009-05-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

Literally, even my songlist on this blog got the song called "supernova". Shits was thrown in my face, hell broke loose in my world, my world plunged into darkness once again. I found out that she got a bf. Yes, I told her that she can get a bf within the time, but please tell me if you got one. That is what hurts most, I got suspicious on it, found out about it, then she tells me. I at first cannot take it, in fact, I cannot take that fact. Now that the fact came and slap onto my face and said: "Here you go, take it!" I don't know what should I do now? I love her but I also can't love her, I care for her but I can't care for her. I think I will go crazy. This is also one reason why I got into martial arts, I'm ready to devote my life to martial arts, not other things already...I really don't know already....

Frastrating

2009-05-12T19:03:00.000-07:00

Recently, I am very frastrated. Things don't work for shit, my mind don't think for good, my life don't lighten up anytime. I hope things don't result into what I am thinking about now. I hope that it is just me being paranoid. I really love her, but I can't stand any shock that will post to me now at this time of my life. I hope, things will work out for me and for her.

*sigh, is this the end? Or just me being paranoid?

2009-05-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

everything was ok for me until when I got home from wing chun at 3pm, saw something that gave one of the biggest shock in my life. I shall not say what it is, but it is about BGR. I know sometime I am being paranoid and shit, but you can't blamed me that I was shocked when I saw that message. I behaved that way because I love her, although I said those words, but you can't blame that because I love her, I reacted that way. I want her happy if she can find it, but something can be sure, I won't be ok for sometime until my heart got used to it. I seriously hoped that message does not implies to her, but to other people that she knows. But it is true, I wished he happy and I will go back to the darkest time of my life. Anyway, my life was in dark for the whole time, nothing has been good for me.

Dawn of twin vengence final episode

2009-05-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

This is the final episode of the action short film I've made, I took a bit of rest after the shooting before I edit this movie, that explains why it took so long to come up here. Nevertheless, let's enjoy it. Oh yeah, my acting sucks.

Super angry about this thing.

2009-04-26T07:20:00.000-07:00

http://www.ultramanclub.com/2009-4/2009424225342.htm

This is an article about how the media in china talked about ultraman. To me, you can say anything bad to me, but not ultraman. I watched ultraman ever since I was a kid, I don't idolise them, they are hero to me. They taught me a lot of things in life. Sorry for those who can't understand what it is talking. It is saying that in a news report, the reporter said that ultraman is a violent TV show that should be banned in china. It is even banned in Japan. First of all, it is not banned, NOT BANNED! It is all over the world, people idolised them and rumoured that the director of spiderman plans to shoot a new movie about it. So why is it banned? Stupid fuck. Secondly, why is it violent? May be the showa era, a bit of blood. But now got more CG and better choreograhed fights. So it is choreograhed fights, why is it violent? Then can banned every action films, banned every single violent movies, or even banned the existence of martial arts schools in china since it is all about fighting. Fuck them, don't they know these are essential? Imagine you got alien or kaijiu invading the town or earth, what you going to do? Throw shoes at them? Some more it is just a TV show with choreographed fights and CG, a TV show with morale values and TV shws that allow kids to hero-lise them, why not let them watch it? Fuck whatever is humiliating ultraman, fuck whatever is critising them and fuck those who fucks around ultraman.

Something to stress about.

2009-04-18T08:39:00.001-07:00

Yeah, I still got to stress something that I had been concerning for months. The school is finally starting, next week to be exact. Seriously, ever since the secondary school to poly, that 6 months holiday, it is killing me to have a long holiday. Thank goodness there is a hong kong trip with the wushu peeps, or else I will rot at home. But because of this trip to HK, I'm closer to 5 other wushu peeps and even formed our own group. Glad that I've made more friends. Other than the school holiday being long, it is also very empty. I tried to keep myself busy, but it is still...empty. I don't know what's lacking, may be that thing? But what ever it is, I'm going to find it and solve it.

Friend test

2009-04-03T09:28:00.001-07:00

I've made a test, see how much you know about me.

Create your own Friend Test here

super stunt

2009-03-30T01:59:00.000-07:00

Last friday, during the training, coach said: "Let's do some strength training". Whoa, that is the main course of the training. We did frog jumps and a lot of other strength training for the entire 2 hours. At the end of the day, everyone got their leg trembling. Most of the people even got trouble walking, up and down the stairs will be hell for us. I got trouble even trying to sit down and stand up, the thigh muscle was so pain. Thanks for the tiger palm paste, my leg got better and able to go for training today, or else even got trouble to run and jump.

Training resume

2009-03-23T06:13:00.000-07:00

The training of wushu finally resume back to normal. Seriously, I really was sick of doing nothing for the entire week last week. Talking about training, I increase the density of the training for now until the end of the nafa test. I got confident in most of the stuff except pull up. Shit, what should I do? Recently, I think I was thinking of someone almost everyday, everytime, everywhere. I don't know wha should I do, but I made a promise to her. So all I can do now is wait, hopefully she feels the same thing as I am...

Back from hong kong

2009-03-13T04:34:00.000-07:00

Seriously, this is the first time I got to somewhere other than hong kong. It was very exciting; it is the first time that I got on to the plane. It did shake a bit, but was within my expectation. The food up there was better than I expected guess it is because of it is SIA that we took. Hong kong got a lot of stuff that was very similar to Singapore and Malaysia such as the building and the road, all are quite similar. When we got to the hotel, I was very shocked. There are a lot wushu participants over there, not all of them are Chinese, some of them come from Japan and even Iran and Italy. After checking in, we got out and eat the dinner. I tell you, the food over there, even though they are the same, but it taste a lot better than the one in Singapore. I ate the curry rice, the curry fragrant and tasty, the spicy level are just at the correct level. In Singapore, a lot of the place got the curry that was so spicy that you can’t finish everything. One thing I don’t really like is the temperature. It is too damn cold over here(hong kong). It was like 10+ degree. The wind is chilling cold, no, freezing cold. When the wind hits your face, you feel the coldness. During the trip to here, it was that harsh. Why? 1) I sms-ed a very important person and talk quite some time, making me feel quite comfortable when coming here. 2) I was expecting everything over here, not everything surprise me except the number of participants. On the night, finally got to sleep, but something was not very right, a room-mate(i shall not mention the name, just say S) snored. It was so loud that the entire room only got his snoring sound. I turn around the bed and finally got to sleep at 3+am.

7+am, I was woke up by S and ask all the other room-mates to go to the 7th floor for breakfast. The hotel was a 6 star hotel, thus the 7th floor alone was restaruant. The queue was long like hell ans people started to cut queue. I finally got the food but the food was not up to the standard I expected to be. Then finally got to the competition ground with all the other members. There are a lot of people and the people from other country then china will compete in court 5. All the court were at the same stadium, so we can see the different standard of the wushu team from all over the world. There are from Iran and even south africa, quite surprising even there has chinese martial art school. The standard of the russians was the highest in my sense among the "non-china" group of contestants. The china's standard was over the top, even a kid can swing the cudgel faster than any one of us, too strong. After the competition for the first day, we went out and eat the lunch, it was basically not bad, but the fried rice that I ate was too many, I struggled to finished it. After that, me, wan ling, eileen, julie, bing long, wen-di and ren mao went out to have a stroll around the tsuen wan and shop a bit too. Some of the stuff were expensive but it was very good. The taste for the food, the design for fashion stuff. We bought cup noodles and went to wan ling's room for dinner. Yeah, we had cup noodles for the dinner. Finally went back to my room and prepare to sleep. Oh no, S started to snore again. It spells "no sleep" for me.

The third day, also the 2nd day of the competition. This time, eileen gave me a morning call and then me and the other room-mates went out to eat breakfast. The situation was the same as the first day, people rushing for food and everything. The competition was very competitive, all the competitors got very high standard. KJ, patrick and others are having broadsword and cudgel on that day. After that, we went out and to eat the lunch again. The curry paste taste like peanut sauce, not very nice. Then, we went back to the hotel to get prepare to go to 大屿山 to pray to the big buddha, ah keong also was to pray for his next day tai chi competiton. We took the train to tong chiung and then took the cable car to the top of the mountain. It was very foggy, we barely see anything on the way up and at one point, we practically can see nothing but the cable 1m in front of us and the rest is just fog. Finally we reached the top and start to venture to different shops and finally got to the staircase which will lead us to the big buddha. Wan ling and eileen went up first. When me, ah keong, ren mao, bing long and julie reached to the top, we can see only the lower body of the buddha, what a piece of shit. We go to a shop to buy something for gifts. Finally got to the cable car station to catch the almost last ride of the cable car. Ren mao lost the ticket and we was held there for about 20 mins. Finally got down and had the dinner at KFC. Even the KFC was so different from singapore, just cannot be described.

The 4th day, me and S went out first to catch the competition of ah keong's tai chi. In the 24th style, he had to compete with 7 people of the same age and him, 42th style had to compete with 4 other competitor. He still come out 2nd for both, that was awesome. Patick have monkey fist at the same day too, it seems pretty cool. After that, wan ling also got broadsword and her "劈手". That was a mistook routine as it was actually to be dagger, but something happened to the registration and thus she had to make do for that. Thank goodness she made it out alright. Then we go back to hotel for a while and we went out for dinner. The dinner was ok, but it was a bit weird that the waitress want to speak english. Finally got back to the hotel, went to wan ling's room and the others to chat and play a little. Got back to the hotel and rest for the next day, shopping time.

5th day, me, wan ling, eileen, juile, bing long and ren mao went to the woman's street for shopping. There are tons of stuff over there. Those are really nice designs and good price. To cut short, I bought a t-shirt, jeans, vest, a pair of shoe and a new wallet. After all the shopping, we went to central and find julie's friend to bring us to dinner and wood chips cake. THat wood chip cakes are some of the best ice-cream cakes I ever eaten. It was fantastic. Then we went back to the hotel and rest.

The last day of the trip, we went to yau ma tei for another shopping. But ultimately, we are going to the peak to take a look at the night view from the top of the mountain. But shit, it was very foggy and we see nothing. Then we got back to hotel and finally rest. The rest, picture will tell the story.

promise, meant to be broken?

2009-02-16T07:55:00.000-08:00

A promise, everyone made. Couples made to make themselves attached even tighter, but why the promise I've with one person was broken within 23hours. We gave each other a promise, a promise that will make us together. But everything was over, all boils down to age, the promise don't mean shit any more. I love her, that will never change, hope she can find her happiness.

Updates, more like a series of review

2009-02-09T07:30:00.001-08:00

Last time said I will do a review of donnie's movie, and now I dragged for a month. To cut short, I will do the review straight away. 3 movies, all starring donnie yen, all shown in 2008.

The empress and the warrior, shown in the mid 2008. I think should be around june, can't remember. So this movie is about the war era in china few thousand years ago. There is this small country(can't remember which one), always promote peace between countries, had to go to war to protect their own people. Donnie was one of the generals that committed many victories in the battle field. One day, the king died and the throne was passed to his daughter. Being a woman, it is not easy to rule a country, let alone during that war era. She picked up her sword and join the war, but in one of the most important battle, she convince the opposing country to stop the war and finally peace came between the 2 countries. But it don't last long, the empress fell in love with a shadow warrior that had been hiding for years, to avoid fighting. No matter what donnie said, she want to be with that shadown warrior, until one day. Another general wanted an revolution because the war had stopped, the soldiers can't stop fighting, he want to go to war again. Thus he sent assasins to kill the empress and the warrior. The empress escaped back to the kingdom, to settle things. Donnie helped, he faced thousands of soldiers alone and killed hundreds of them until he falls. The empress killed the rebelious general in a duel and unite the people back together. She returned to the warrior to find out that he is dead, she then vows to bring peace to the land until she falls dead.

This is a pretty average movie, the entire movie was too much about the love, the action part was a bit lagging. Yet, the 1 vs thousand of soldiers scene are cool. I mean, who can do that? I give it a 6 of 10.

Painted skin, shown in the september, somewhere after the chinese ghost fest. This movie was based one the famous ghost story novels. It is about love, again. Donnie, again, portrayed a general, but left the unit many years ago. He returned to the town he once stayed in, found out that his ex-lover married to his brother(not blood related). His brother saved a woman during the trip back to town after mission. His wife found out that woman has something weird, but can't describe what was wrong. The brother let her stay in his house, due to the fact that her parents are killed. After that woman came, many murder case started, the victims died in a hit, with the hearts being dug out. Donnie then met a demon slayer that claims there is a demon in town and the murder case somehow related to the demon she is after, thus help in the investigation. It was a demon's deed, a lizard demon. The girl that was saved, she was of no human, she is a fox demon. Disguised in a human skin, she had to eat humen's heart to maintain the skin. THe lizard demon then hunt for her, because he had a thing of her. Finally the wife found out this secret, in order to protect her husband, she agreed to drink a poison that was make her skin turned white, she had to claim that she is the demon, she is the murderer. The husband witness her saying those words in the town, to the citizens. He was stunned, donnie can't bear it any more, he brought her to a cave with the demon hunter. The whole army arrived, to get rid of the demon, which is the brother's wife, the fox demon tagged along. The brother can't make the decision, because he is the captain of the army, he had to kill his wife. But he can't kill his wife with him living, thus he committed suicide after killing her. Donnie's rage can't be controlled any more, he raised his blade and slash the fox demon. Seeing no blood spilled, not even a twitch on the face, proving her demon existence. The lizard appears and decide to kill everyone and then bring the fox demon away. Donnie and the demon hunter fought the lizard, finally killed it by using a very strong demon slaying sword to kill both demons, along with donnie. The blade shattered and revived everyone, the army, donnie, wife and the brother. Donnie then set on another journey to slay demons with the demon slayer.

This movie was actually better than the last one. I had to say that the action was still lagging in this movie, but the storyplot was interesting. Qi yu wu, an actor in singapore(chen xi in "little nonya") portray the lizard. The acting was pretty good, but still, the fight scene between him and donnie should be nice if donnie were to choreograph the action sequence. I'll give this movie an 7.5 of 10.

Ip man, shown in 19th december. Why I remember the date so correctly? BECAUSE THIS MOVIE WAS GREAT!!! I watched it 2 times in the cinema, 2 times on dvd and 3 times on my computer.

The story was based on the life story of grandmaster yip man(eep mun), the first martial artist to teach wing chun openly and make it all over the world. It was in 1930s, foshan of china. Foshan was said to be the home of martial arts, yip man practiced wing chun and love to spar with people. But he got no interest in opening a school. He spent his time with his wife, son, his good friend and the good old wooden dummy. Everything was ok until one day, some barbarians from the northern part came of foshan, to challenge every martial arts schools, all the masters lost. They finally headed to yip man's house, challenged yip man. With his wife approval, yip man accepted the challenged happily. He defeated the barbarians with no sweat broke. He then became a hero of foshan. Good things don't last, the Japanese invaded china and yip man's house was confiscated. He live a hard life with his wife and son, finally he found a job in a coal mine where he met many other martial arts masters. One of his friends went to a fighting ring, where people can challenge the Japanese karate black belts, win can get rice. But he lost and was killed in an accident. Yip man questioned and he went to the fighting ring, witness a shooting on a chinese martial artist who lost a fight against 3. He was pissed and went in the ring and request to challenge 10 karate black belts. He fought the 10 black belts and he almost cripple all of them, either they end up with a broken limbs or the face was beaten to a pulp where the mother can't even tell who he is. The Japanese general was impressed, hope he would be back for more fights, but yip mun refused. Yip mun's good friend, quan, was facing a trouble. His factory was threaten by robbers, who is the same barbarians that challenged many martial artists years ago. Yip mun was convinced to stay in the factory to work and teach wing chun to the workers at the same time. The robbers are back, not the factory workers fight with the robbers gang, yip mun arrived and beaten all of them. The barbarian was furious, he told the Japanese general about yip mun's location, yip mun was forced to go back with the Japanese to teach the Japanese wing chun. Yip mun refused but he want to fight with the General. Few days later, the arena was setted up, but the captain want yip mun to lose or he will shoot him, yip man just smiled. Yip mun appears in the arena and fought the general and defeated him. He was then shot, but not fatal. He was then brought away and finally stay in hong kong in 1940s, opened up a school that teaches wing chun and finally an assiociation. Many of his students are experts now, one of the most noted student of his, is bruce lee....

This movie is just simply great, I can't stop saying how good it is. The story was good, the story nicely brings out the feeling of the people, of course with the skills of the actors. The action, oh my god, the entire movie was action, fights here and there. Nice choreography by sammo hung! The music was by the same person who wrote music scores for death note, L change the world and dragon tiger gate, the music brings the tension to the maximum, cope with the action sequence and make it perfect. I give it 11 of 10, it is beyond any expectation. One thing I've heard is that there will be a sequel, about his life in HK, also introduced his student, bruce lee. Extra info, I'm learning wing chun too, my sifu was a student of yip zhun, son of yip mun.

New year, 2009 is here.

2009-01-02T05:39:00.000-08:00

Well, I guess I'll review the donnie's movie on the next post, for now, I would talk something about new year resolution.

Well, there are a lot of people making resolution for a new year and hope to accomplish it by the end of the year. Some people dont like to make it and to me, it something like a "setting a target" thing for me, new targets for me to get to, so here goes.

1) Improve further on martial arts(Both wushu and taekwondo).
2) Save up enough money and go to Japan by the end of the year.
3) Get to meet with my idol, donnie yen or ultraman or both.
4) I want to improve on my academic results.
5) Shoot more short films and improve of the filming skills.
6) I want to get a girlfriend.

Again, I want to talk about resolution 6. It is a resolution I have been making for like 3 to 4 years? And what do I got? Nope, I got nothing. Like what I said in the previous 2 post, I am very lonely. I spent my time alone a lot of the time, it makes up almost half of my life time. Even my brother keep saying me like to be a loner, I do everything alone and don't wished to open to many people. So far, I only open my heart to my buddies, which only got 2. I did tried to open up more, but sometime it is not that easy. My brother said it is because I like to be a loner, I am still single. He got a point, but I don't know how to solve the problem. I am still waiting for the right person to enter my life, to open my heart fully to her. Where is this person? Ok, I should stop about that, I just hoped it would happened in 2009....

Christmas holiday movies

2008-12-26T05:40:00.000-08:00

I caught 2 movies in a row, one with my bro and one with my bro and my cousin(along with his girlfriend). So what movie I watched, I will review them here.

This first movie that I caught with my bro, it is "bedtime stories". It is about a man, Skeeter, whose father operated and own a motel. But due to financial problem, he had to sell it, under the condition that skeeter have to run the hotel when he grows up. Well, skeeter did work in the hotel that was built after the person bought it, but he work as a plumber. One day he had to baby-sit his sister's children while she went out of town for a week. The kids are used to have bedtime story before the sleep. Skeeter told them one during the first night, the kid added sometime into the story, so the ending sounds happy. In the next day, skeeter found out that what ever was said in the story by the kids, it came true. On the same day, he got the chance of meeting the boss of the hotel. The boss said that the new hotel's theme and skeeter mentioned that the theme was outdated. The boss give him a shot, if he can come out with a better idea, he will be the manager of the new hotel. He decide to make use of the strange phenomenons that the bedtime story told to the kid to gain the position. Although in the end he got the position, he was fired moments later due to something(avoiding spoilers). I would now talk about the ending, it is predictable, what you expect from disney movie? Sad ending?

Second movie, yes man.

This movie is about a loner who says no to anything that comes to him, even his buddy asking him out. One day, his old classmae asked him to attend a seminar that ultimately changed his life, that is to say yes to everything that comes to him. Because of this, he finally found his love and finally got to become a sociable person, got into high rank in his bank office. Well, in the end, it is still a holiday movie and it has, of course, happy ending.

Basically, both movies are very funny, but they suffer the same error, jokes get old. This is very obvious in "Yes man", almost all the jokes had been used before. But, they are both very good movies, I give them 7/10 for "Bedtime stories" and 6.5/10 for "Yes man". Catch them if you got the chance, will give you a good laugh.
New post, I will review a series of movies starring my idol, donnie yen.

Movie review, bolt

2008-12-21T08:47:00.000-08:00

Ok, this is a disney movie, so it is a kid movie. Yet, it attracted a lot of people to watch it and include me.

This movie started a dog, bolt, with a girl, penny, trying to save her father from an evil organisation. The father knows the girl will be targetted, he altered bolt's gene and make it a superdog. So there is a dog-bike-chopping chase scene and then bolt bark the shit out of the thugs.

You thought this is an action disney movie, oh no, you're wrong. These action are jst a filming of a tv show. Bolt believe that everything and his power is true and people are trying to catch penny. Until one day that after a shooting end with penny really got caught. The manager of penny don't allow her to see bolt to let bolt continue to believe everything. Bolt escaped the studio and accidentally got to NYC. From there, he team up with a cat, mitten and a mouse or something, rhino to get back to hollywood. In the mean time, he noticed that everything is fake and so do his power.

Finally he got back to hollywood and some shit happens, he got back with penny with mitten and rhino, becoming pets of penny's.

I had to say the graphic are pretty good and the voice acting are pretty good. Well, what you expect for the disney movie? But I got one thing to say about the plot, it is very similar to Toy story by pixar, in fact, I think the plot is exactly the same, just with different character. Toy story is about a toy woody and buzz got lost and then a kid grab it and claimed his. Then the owner is moving house and then woody and buzz got back to the owner just in time. That is the one thing that I complain, the plot is so similar to toy story that there isn't much originality.

This movie is still pretty good, I give it 7/10 for it. Go watch it if you got the chance.

Argh! pain!

2008-12-11T06:27:00.000-08:00

Last sunday, I think I over exert a bit too much during the gym session, I injured my bi-sect(sp). Now it's ridiculously pain if I want to raise my hand higher than the shoulder height. *sigh, 2008 is almost over and this year hasn't been one of the worst year, but it wasn't one of the best. I lost a lot of things this year, I lost love, I lost friendship, not to mention twice. It's seems that I always don't get love, I always can't get a girlfriend that both of us love each other. I'm not being a "love-holic", but it's just too...lonely. I'm always so lonely, even though I always told my buddy that I will not love, martial art is the only thing. But deep down in my heart, I always want someone to love and someone to love me. Can you imagine how lonely to watch a movie alone, to go shopping alone, go playing alone and even walking alone? It's this emptiness that is enough swallow a whole person in and devour them. God, please grant me this small wish, I want to love someone and someone to love me...

Busy, busy and still busy

2008-12-03T08:03:00.000-08:00

Been busy recently, tomorrow is my first day in the Film IG, so I'm going to work hard to get better on filming. Talking about filming, last time I talked about taking part in the reflection, an art event in school. So a team need to submit their entry, a short film and then judges will judge which one will win. I didn't win, but it's due to one that there is no "best action design" prize, so I didn't win any one of the prize. I also got not very good comment on the sgcafe forum. I'm ok with it, just a little demoralising when saw it. But, the president of the Film IG invited me to join, to hone my camera skills. Also, one of the organiser said that the judges like the fight scene, one of them is a tv programe producer and might look up to me when they want to film action scene. Although, I never win, but it seems that the reward is bigger and better than the $1000 cash.

Recently not only busy, I don't know what happened to me. When I'm bored, I turn on either python or php to do programming. Although it might be difficult at time, but it is quite fun when I do it.

I am now planning for the last episode of the "dawn of twin vegeance". I'm going to make it big. I might film it in this dec holiday or during the 2 months holiday.

Tomorrow going to watch a movie, will talk about it when I got back home.

Some funny stuff.

2008-11-07T08:25:00.000-08:00

Last week, I had my pp presentation, but I also got wushu training. So I brought all the things needed to the training, since iti s before my timeslot for presentation. I changed and went for the presentation just about half an hour before the training ends. I rehearse a bit, then went in to present. Overall, it's a pretty pleasant experience, hope I can pass. After that go eat lunch with bunny and hui han and zi yun. I ate quite a lot that day, damn hungry. No breakfast and then training, restrict from eating stuff until 3+.

Ok, so what so funny is this about. The resul comes out on the monday morning. I happily find my clothes for the day and the pant & t-shirt for training. I search through high and low, I can find it. I'm sure I didn't misplace it, since I'm wearing the same clothes I wore the last time. So, I remember I never bring it home the previous week. Because during that day I opened my bag a lot of times, which should have my clothes, but it isn't there. Great, so I happily left it outside E5 for 3 days and never noticed it. I went to class as per normal, hopefully it is still there, but it wasn't. Made a report at OSC and then I skippede training to go all the way to kallang to buy. Now, warning, the funny part is coming:

I'm sorry to those who can't read chinese. So it is a flyer about buy/sell used handphones. In mandarine, hand is 手 and phone is 电话. For the combined version, a shorter word is used, 手机. In the flyer, it is 手鸡. Direct translation will be hand chicken. I laughed my ass out man, and some more it is in the middle of the street. Then I also come across a sign for a shop. Supposingly it is roast lamb meat. But it is a baby lamb(I don't know the name for it) and it is fat and juicy, I guess. It is writen in mandarine, 小肥羊, which mean little fatty lamb for direct translation. But the sign-board bring it to a new level, there is an english name for it, small feiyang. I laughed again, except for the word small, it is just an english way of spelling mandarine. What the hell, I wonder what if other caucasian see this? I bet it is writen by china people.

finally an update.

2008-10-15T08:27:00.000-07:00

Wow, that is a long time since I update this blog. Well, life seems to get busier and busier as day goes by. Remember last time after I finished filming, the second episode of the short series I'm making. Things had it's way to stuck me in the current state. Well, what I was busying? Monday and friday I got wushu training in school, recently got a performance coming up, the coach want us to train harder. Damn, that will be the first performance of mine in my entire life. And somemore in front of a couple thousands of people, geez, cut me a break.

Wednesday I got taekwondo training as usual. Now I'm getting close to brown belt, which means I am aligible for the tournament. Damned, I can't wait till that day.

Saturday, oh my god, I have to go to my dreadful father's stall to help out. Fuck, I mean I worked there for more than 10 years, who would get tired of doing the same thing over and over again for 10 years?

Sunday I got Japanese class and gym session. Well, gym is one part of the routine, I have to go to gym for whatever reason. Japanese class has been fun too, but too bad that it has been almost 2 years since I sit in a class, holder a pen and taking down notes for 2 hours. To tell the truth, sometime I did fell asleep. The sensei likes to joke, but a lot of the time is just corny, not funny at all.

That pretty much take up 5 days of my week, which means I left tues and thur to rest. But let's not forget, I want to improve both at programming and drawing, which means more time is needed to be used on both. That generally left 0 days in a week for me to rest. The only rest I can get is the slumber every night.

Talk about programming, I really hate PHP programming, especially that faci. She keep giving a message on the face: "you better do something or I'm going to get you fucked up". Fuck, can't she give us a break? Sometime I ask her question, it is equal to not answering since her answer is really vague. Occasionally, the problem for the day is too big to be completed in a day. I mean what the hell is wrong with the problem crafter? Even it can be completed in a day, that would take all the team members together and spend no time eating, drinking, resting and even going to the toilet. Not to mention that the worksheet sucks, it is the most vague worksheet I ever seen in my entire life. If my english teacher during my secondary school time were to see this, I think she would correct everything. Imagine this question.

Now, create a button and allow it to link to this php codes. What do you see?

What the fuck? It didn't even say what are we supposed to do. Create a button and link to the php codes? What can I see? Why not just say: "what can you see at this section?" That would be more helpful. Sometime I just don't want to look at the worksheet except to see what to do for the next step. Fuck this crap, fuck it to hell. I'm giving it both middle finger at full force.

Ok, gotta cool down. FUCK! TOMORROW IS PHP, OH GOD!!!

Money no enough 2

2008-09-21T08:34:00.000-07:00

Ok, this time I'm going to post a review about this movie that was said to be one of the best movie made by Jack neo. I want to say something, this movie suck ass and because of one very simple reason, the title. I'll start with the summary of the plot.

There are 3 brothers from different life background. The elder brother, hui, is a low wage worker who everyday works hard just to survive. The second elder brother, qiang, from a rich background and the younger brother, huang, a middle wage boss. All 3 of them strive hard to get as rich as possible, hui eventually joint huang selling some healthy pills with the financial help from their mother. It was a success at first, but later on the pills was tested out to be poison. Qiang on the other hand, faces a problem that the lawyer ran away with their money and cause his to get into serious debt problem. Their mother of course help them out financially, as much as possible. But it is time for her to gone senile. When they finally coped with their debts, now they have to take care of their mother, taking turns. Although they are the sons, but they failed to take good care of her. Soon, they decide to take her to the homes, but the mother collapsed due to sickness. They stayed at the hospital, with the rising of hospital fee, they found trouble with coping it. At one time, qiang's wife and daughter was rushing to get to the location of performance during the 7th month, but they met an car accient and then her daughter was sent to the same hospital. The hospital lack of O- blood for the daughter, as the blood was being sent to the mother for operation. At this crossroad, everyone was crying and arguing for the blood. The mother, sacrificing herself, plug out the oxygen pipe without any one knowing, resulting to her death and the blood was being used to save qiang's daughter. At the end of the movie, the 3 brothers invest in a healthy product again and gain great success...

Ok, this movie, got one very big problem that all movies shouldn't make. THERE ARE TOO MANY CG SCENES!!! I mean, what the hell, this is not a fantasy movie or anything like that, this is a movie reflecting real life problem, which means must be realistic. What do I see here? CG animation here and there, spamming it like hell is going to break lose. If it is about throwing the EPR into the sea, I got no problem about it, but the entire show was filled by CGI. Let me name out a few, the car crashing scene where the daughter flew out, the talisman burning(which paper burns and no smoke, ashes were produced?) etc. I mean, which is there so many 3D animation being involved? There is not need for it, no fucking need for it!!!

*sigh, oh, why the movie sucks mainly because of the title? Let me explain. The movie title, "money no enough 2", should focus on striving/surviving in the money needed world. Take a look at the prequel, "money no enough". Everything was about money and people handling with it. This sequel on the other hand, is more like motherly love. The mother plays such a big role in the movie, not to mention like the later half of the movie. Everything was about how noble mother is or something. The money problem was solved pretty much the first hour of the movie and the later half changed the theme totally. THIS IS FUCKING STUPID!!! I mean, jack was a good director, I give you that, but the theme totally went off after the money problem was being solved, what the fuck!? I'll rate this movie...half star/5. Why half? Well, even the joke inside were pretty old and sometime is just corny,

New class

2008-09-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

Ok, it is the third day of the new semester and now then I start talking about it. Well, I was busy few days back then. So basically, getting into a new class every semester is kind of a routine already, I already got used to it and never got emotional at the end of semester like what I did during the first year semester 1. So this new class, it's a pretty nice one. Miraculously, I can remember most of the name of the other people, even though I may not talk to them much in the class....well, for the first 3 days of course. The new classmates are cool, I don't now why, I just think that they are. The faci also good, especially morgan who teaches us python programming. Ben lee rocks too, but he gave me a comment on the first day animation that the design is bad, which is the gave me the heaviest impact. Because my design is bad, yeah, I got to buck up and unleashed my creativity throughout the module.

Few days ago, before the holiday ended, I finally finished the film that was held back for more than half year. Now I'm doing the editing, but it is the most tedious thing I ever did. Why? My adobe premiere pro was unworkable for some reason, now I was resulted to Ulead video studio. But I can say, it is the worst video editing software. Why? IT IS FREAKING LAGGY!!! I mean, window movie maker is even better than it. I was to put a transition at the end of the movie, but the transition can only to be imply between 2 clips, what suck ass function. Not only that, it also got some weird special effects. Although I don't need them, but it's still ok to use. One of the worst thing I hate is how it affect my movie. Everytime there is a movement of the people in the clip, it some sort make the edge of the character to looks weird, like there are lines coming out from the edge. The worst thing of this software, it is fucking lag. Everytime when I scroll the timeline, it takes like fucking 30seconds, yes, I'm not kidding, 30 fucking seconds. I was so angry about it, but the function is more than movie maker, which is what I want. This is bullshit, I almost kill someone because of that. But thank goodness, the video is almost done. Look forward to it then.

W65N BBQ

2008-08-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

I keep forgetting to update the details in our bbq, a bit too busy to update, so here I am to update. First I went to bedok to meet with alvin and the company to buy all the things that is needed for the BBQ. Walked around the parkway parade's giant for all the things while alvin wait at the bus stop for puay yek. We bought quite a lot of things, at first we thought that the food might not be enough for so many people, but from what I heard, it seems that the food is a little too much for the bunch of people. After all the shopping, we went to the BBQ straight away. Gues what? We walked for quite a while before we finally reach the place, that was a long way man. When we reach there, me, linus and alvin decide to ride the bicycle that we rented to the 7-11 for some drinks, we were thirsty at that time. We went and bought, when we got back, within like 2 minutes, 2 agent from NEA approach. They claimed that they saw shaq threw 3 piece of tissues on the floor and thus issued a fine to her. We were like "what the fuck?", we just reached there and didn't even start to unpack the ingredient that we got there. We did try to reason out, but one "$10000 fine will be issued if we detain their time to carry their duties" was slapped on our face. We got nothing to saw but to keep quiet...What the fuck is this?

After that thing, we proceed to do some preparation for the BBQ, like unpacking the ingredient and wash it. Then we played some captain ball on the beach, I tell you, that was fun. But one thing bad is that I can't jump much because it is sand, it absorbed most of the forces that I applied to jump. After that captain ball will be the king game, some of the forfeit is ridiculous and some of them are just funny. Then it was evening time, the rest of the people start to come in and then we started eating and chatting. After that eating period again, we play the number game, yes, the same game that me and the the company that went for the NDP. I can't play for long, because I need to go back once my parents came. Guess what, the moment we started the game, my parents called and said that they will come in 10 minutes, what the hell? So I played a little and then I went back.

NDP

2008-08-14T00:35:00.000-07:00

Ok, long time never talk about recent life. So yeah, this post is about the NDP outing with my friends.

This year Nation day happens to be on saturday, which means I have to work at my father's stall, but I left like in 4+pm and go to suntect city to meet with wayne and the company. Guess what? I call them a lot of times and none of them picked up the phone, so I loiter around suntect city, trying my luck and see whether can run into them or not. Finally wayne called back and told me that they are at the arcade. Great, I'm at a very far place from the arcade, so I use like 20 mins to get to the arcade and meet with them. We play some games in the arcade and then we go to marina square to find yek. Yek was with her friends, again, at the arcade. Play some more games, then look at linus and fifi play "guitar freak". After that, we head out to find place for a clear view of the fireworks. Finally, we got to the Singapore flyers and sit there to get the view of the fireworks. The fireworks were nice, thank goodness I witness it with my eye, not from the squarish TV. With the end of fireworks, it means the journey for our hungry stomach. We look through everywhere in suntect city, in the end, we ate at pizza hut. Ordered 4 pizzas and couple of drinks and soup. Just few slices of pizza and I'm already full. After he dinner, then we play a number game called "终极密码", it is played like this. The range is 0 to 100, a person will have the number on his handphone or anywhere that can be written. Then the other play guess a number. If the number is wrong, then the range will be shorten. If the person got the correct number, he will have to play "true or dare". We played a little bit at pizza hut then we head outside to continue the game. We asked a lot of....intimacy questions, but I wasn't asked that kind of question, just revealed a secret or 2 of mine. On the final round, wayne got the correct number and then he was asked a question, then he answered with the most classic answer we ever heard, guess it would be a joke for the entire RP life. Finally, we went home.

this is the punishment before the "true and dare" comes in. A cup of plain water with chilli and cheese.

During the fireworks waiting time.

It's pizza time(sounds familiar?):

Next post I will put updates on the BBQ event we had yesterday.

Movie review again

2008-08-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

Ok, after this review, I will stop for a while until I watch the next movie. The first movie will be this:

This movie is a new batman movie after the suck ass "batman and robin" movie in the 90s. The movie started off by introducing bruce wayne, the son of a millionair in gotham city. He witnessed his parents being killed in a robbery and that determined him to fight crime. He went to other country and train for 7 years, under a person with very strong sense of justice, rus al gul. At one point, they caught a theif, to them, every crime must be paid by death and the execution right were given to wayne. He reject the idea and then fight the entire school of justice servant, eventually he appareantly defeated rus al gul. He, then return to gotham city, uses the unsed equipment that the military do not want, developed by his company. Design a suit that is capable to glide, spy, eavesdropping, and bullet proof armour covering the entire body, shurikens on the shin, throwing knives at his...belt or somewhere, grappling hook and many more equipments. As wayne fights crime in his night life, he soon encounter scarecrow, which has the equipment to eject fear inducing toxin to an individual. After some researching, rus al gul appear once again in his party. Rus al gul intends to use the fear inducing toxin, co-op with the equipment, capable of evaporising liquid, to destroy the corrupted gotham city. Wayne got himself back into a section of the city to stop rus al gul to destroy the city. Both of them fought in the train, which contain the liquid vaporising equipment. With the help of gordon, his friend in the police department, they finally stop the destruction of gotham city. Sometime after the incident, gordon got contact with batman, telling him there is a criminal that wants to get to batman. The criminal left a card, indicating his identity.

Ok, comment time. This is by far, the best batman movie(2005 perspective). The cinematography and story telling is good. The best part of the movie is the car chasing scene, where batman drives his bat mobile(the tumbler) and outrun the police. The story is darker compared the previous few movies, the batsuits design is badass too. Talking about badass, when wayne became batman, his change his voice to a deeper pitch, which make batman even more badass. Listern to solid snake's voice and you will know it. There are 2 things I want to complain, first: The first hour or so of the movie is too much. Explaining how wayne got the idea of the batsuit, how he train, how he determine to fight crime was way too much, may be don't need that much of the time, just a little bit will do. Also, the movie is a little too long, only if the first hour hour were to be more exciting, it wouldn't be a problem.
Second: The fight scenes are poorly filmed, it was being cut and editing in a way that I can't see what is going on in the scene. Although with the complains, but this is a movie that worth watching.

Second movie I'm going to review will be the sequel of batman begins, the dark knight.

This movie started about the same time when batman begins ended. It started off by showing some robbers robbing a bank, in the end one of them killed the others and took off the mask. It is the Joker, nemesis of batman. Joker went to the mobs' boss to give idea on how to take down batman, although the bosses don't agree it a lot, but since taking down batman is their benefit, why not? Not to mention too many things in the movie, but one thing I can say is that two-face also make an appearance in this movie too.

Ok, there is a very big improvement compared this to the prequel. First thing that got improved is that the fighting scenes are more detailed and well edited, I can see what is happening in the fighting scenes. Second thing is that the props that was used got more and more explosions. The story are nice too, always got plot-twist here and there. One thing I'm very happy about is the joker. Everytime when I think about a clown, it's either a totally funny person or a really scary motherfucker. And guess what, heath ledger did a very good job in portraying a total crazy criminal that don't afraid of anything, just simply crazy. The showdown of joker and batman is always the highlight of every batman movie or series. I say this is the best batman movie ever, hope there will be a sequel to it.

Movie review once more

2008-07-25T06:56:00.000-07:00

Ok, like what I said last time, this review will be about indiana jones series. I will leave out "kingdom of the crystal skull", since I review it before already.

This is the first movie of the trilogy. The movie started off by Indiana(let's call him indy) venturing into some tribal ruins with an aquaintance. At the end of the venturing through traps and deadly spiders in the ruins, he finally got the idol of in the ruin, but soon being grabbed away by one of his competitors, belloq. Indy escaped from the chasing tribe people and return to the states empty handed. In the Uni that he taught in, he met 2 army intelligence, who told him that the nazi is looking for the ark of the covenant for great power. One of the key person is indy's former teacher. Indy flew all the way to nepal to find his teacher, but instead he found his former lover, marion, who is the daughter of his teacher. After a gun fight in the var of marion's, he got marion to go to egypt, which is said that the location of the ark is at. With the help of his friend and many puzzle solving, gun fights and chasing, indy found the ark, but was again taken away by belloq. Chasing after the nazis' submarine, they reach an isolated island for a ritual to open the ark. Surprisingly, marion was being captured by the nazis and held hostage, indy has no choice to give in and follow them to the altar. At the altar, belloq conduct the ritual and open the ark. What was inside the ark is very surprising, I think it is something that's powerful, it eliminates all the nazi soldier over there, belloq and the commander. Only indy and marion survived because they did not look at the ritual, so the power inside the ark didn't kill them. Indy brings the ark back to the states, the army lied to indy that the ark is under researching, but it was being stored in a warehouse that contain multiple supernatural artifacts...

This movie is a good one, puzzle solving and jokes, it has everything that you want in a movie. Regarding of the action part, I think still can be improved, like the punches didn't make contact. Some might not notice it or care about it, but I care and noticed it, so it can be improved. I'll give 4 star for this movie.

Second movie, indiana jones and the temple of doom. This is a prequel to "raider of the lost ark", it started off in shanghai, where indy found the remain of the first manchu emperor for his client. But it seems that the client don't intend to pay indy, a huge diamond. In the end, a gun fight happens and then indy was poisoned by the drink he just drank. He mananged to grab the antidote from the client and then grab the girlfriend of the client as hostage to escape. Indy and the girlfriend, wilie drop onto indy's side kick, short round's car and then escape to the airport. They boarded the train, never noticed that it is the client's company plane. The pilot parachute off the plane while indy and the company was taking a nap. Indy woke up and decide to land on the ground, using inflatable boat with willie and short round. They noticed that they were in india and was in a village which all the kids were being grabed by the king in the castle of pankot, along with the village sankara stone. Indy in order to repay them, he decide to head into the castle. Upon reaching the castle, indy meet many officials and royals, including a british navy captain. After many investigation, he found out that the castle is the fortress to a cult, doing human sacrifices. Even indy got brainwashed and nearly brought willie to sacrifing, until short round woke him by torching him a bit. Indy in the end escaped the castle by a mine trolly track with willie and short round, then encounter the chief of the cult at a hanging bridge, which has dozens of crocs under the it. Doing something crazy, he cut off the bridge supporting rope and managed to get the chief down into the river, resulting into being torn apart. The british navy later then came in to arrest the rest of the cult member. Indy return to the village with the kids and the sankara stone, happy ending....

This is one of the not so good indiana jones movie. All the other movies, indy fly from countries to countries looking for the artifact. But this movie is just in a castle saving kids, not find artifacts. It is still good, but not really good when compared to the other indiana jones movie, just a bit too goofy. I will give 3 star for this movie.

Third movie, indiana jones and the last crusade. The movie start off by explaining how indy got his hat, I wonder what has it got to do with the plot? I know that the hat is one of the most important thing of indy, but why need to explain it? Anyway, indy was still looking for artifacts and all, until a man told him that indy's father disappear when looking for the holy grail and the nazi seems to be involved in the disappearing, Indy is determine to find his father. First start off at venice, he discover the clue and then head to germany for an important diary to get to the location of the holy grail, he found his father along the way too. Just like the normal Indiana jones movie, indy got held by the nazis as well as his father and sallah, the man that helped indy to find the ark. Indy have to solve the puzzle in the ruins that contains the holy grail. He solved it along with the nazi commander, enter the chamber that contain the grail. Only one grail is the correct one, drinking the holy water with the wrong grail will result to death. The commander chose the wrong one and indy has to pick one. Of course he choose the correct one, using it to save his father who suffer from fatal gun wound. If the grail left the seal of the temple, the temple will collapse and the effect of the holy grail will fade. That is what happened, resulting all the nazis to crash in the temple, left indy and his company alive...

This is so called the last of the trilogy of indiana jones. This is a good movie, a good end for the trilogy. The love of father and son, the action scene(excluding hand to hand combat) and jokes, all was enchenced from the first one, making it one of the most perfect movie ever. I give it 4.5 stars.

Next movie reviews, let you guess, a few recent movies.

Movie review

2008-07-20T07:41:00.000-07:00

I'm going to cut short on this movie reviews, there are 5 in a row, so basically I just put up pictures and reviews, no story summary, may be a bit.

This 2nd movie start after the event after rocky 1. Rocky decide to retire from boxing and marry adrian. But he soon have to find a job because his prize money can't last, but nothing turns out good and so he have to go back to boxing against adrian's will. Eventually adrian passed out due to over work and nearly misscarriage(sp?). He actually wanted to rematch with apollo, but he is not in the mood now. Finally adrian woke up and gave rocky the encouragement. Rocky went back to training once again and then the rematch, he win by KO.

The movie basically is a further development of each character, which is a good thing. One thing bad that is the punches don't come close to make a contact, which make the fight less realistic.

rocky 3, this movie start off rocky going on a winning spree. Everyone that challenged him lost and he retain his title, heavy weight champion of the world. But he was challenged by a boxer named clubber lang. Rocky accepted challenge, but mickey, his trainer + manager suddenly fall due to heart failure. Rocky can't concentrate during the fight and thus he was KO'ed. After the match, a bit of talking with mickey and mickey dies. Rocky sudden lost of his dearest mentor, friend, manager and teacher, made him unable to train well for the rematch. Apollo appears and decide to train rocky, because he don't want the rocky that previously beat him to fall. Rocky took a while to over come the phobia of losing and finally trained up for the rematch. The rematch ended with rocky emerge winning and regain his title.

This movie is the one that pick up the series, especially the fight, which is perfect for boxing. First time that is the entire fight is shown, not overlayed.

Next one, rocky 4. This movie start off about the same time after rocky 3, everything is just as per normal, until a visit of a boxer, Ivan drago, from USSR, which means soviet union back in a few decades ago. This boxer is here for a challenge with some good boxer, the patriotic apollo rise up for the challenge. But this soviet boxer is a monster, he KO'ed apollo within a few rounds like nothing, ending up apollo died after the match. Rocky, after witnessing his best friend's death, he decide to challenge drago for a match, also a revenge for apollo. He went to a mountain in soviet union for training, since he is going to do the rematch over there. He was finally going to the match after getting he support from adrian, who at first don't want him to go to the match since it won't change the fact that apollo is dead. I won't go much about the fight, it is just like the normal rocky movie, the fight is overlay, but it is definitely great fight.

This movie is so far my favourite in the series, the concept of the USA and the soviet union is brilliant. Not to mention that in the end, rocky gave a speech about break the wall between the 2 nation. This movie was said that ended the cold war between the 2 countries, I wonder if that is true or not.

Rocky 5, it started, again, straight after the event of rocky 4. It seems that there is some problem with rocky after the match with drago, he isn't feeling quite well. When he got back to the states, he was diagnosed that he has permernant brain damage, which is common for boxer. This spells the end to his boxing career. Not only that, most of his money were being stolen away by an accountant. Now he is back to square one, he resulted living in his older apartment again. He still can't get over with boxing, so he went back to mickey's gym to be as an instructor. Now a man named tommy gunn appear, saying that he is a fan of rocky and wished to be like him, going over the limit. After much talking, rocky finally decide to be his manager and trainer. Tommy win many matches, but he still can't get to the top, heavy weight champion. Until a crook see the opportunity of tommy, money of couse. He sweet talked tommy and tommy in the end abandoned rocky for his career. Tommy indeed got his championship and gain the title, but he was not respected like rocky did. In order to get his respect, he think he has to beat rocky. He went to the bar that rocky visit often, he challenged rocky and rocky fights him. This isn't a ring fight, this is a sreet fight, tommy in the end lost and got arrested for causing trouble.

This is the worst rocky movie in my sense, rocky don't have any action in it except the last scene. Which makes the main character not rocky. The story telling also bad, I guess it is because that the director is not slvester stallone. Something also being weird, when rocky left the states for the match, his son is like only 7 or 9 years old. When he returned, miraclly that his son now is a teenager, what happened to this director? Is he s fucking idiot?

Last one, rocky balboa. This movie starring the same character as the previous few movies. Rocky now don't fight any more, I think it's because his wife is now gone, dead. Rocky doesn't have any more encouragement. He now run a restaraunt, bears the name "adrian". His son now works in a company, but it is because of his father, the famous rocky. His friends also look at him differently just because he is the son of rocky. One day, the media put on a CG fight of rocky and the current heavy weight champ, mason dickson. The CG fight turns out that Rocky won, this make everyone curious about the actual fight results. Rocky now decide to fight one last time. He have to train extra harder, since he is no longer young. 60 years old, what you expect? During the fight, the age difference did show the result, rocky kept getting the punches. At the second round, it proves that will still can surpass skills. Rocky punch dickson a lot of times and even him say that rocky got bricks in his gloves. In the end, dickson won the fight by the split decision from the judges.

This movie is one of the most hyped movies ever, 1) rocky is one of the best movie ever made, but it ended at the early 90s. 2) Rocky movie is a connection between people of different generation, I am one of them. I recomment people to go watch the rocky movies, they are just simply great. You can leave out rocky 5, since it is a piece of shit, even stallone said so.

Next review, another great movie series. Indiana Jones.

things fucked up a lot...

2008-07-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

Ok, recently a lot of shit happned. My PP was sent back to me for rework and thus I went to look for the advisor, guess what? Only a little bit need to add in, which is stronger conclusion and sub-titles. What the hell... Just a bit, why wouldn't the advisor wrote it in the email?

Today is the grading of my taekwondo, I was looking forward to it because finally got sparring after like a month. When I enter the hall, the examiner gave that kind of "fucked-up" face. It's like he saw the most dreadful thing on earth and of all time. The hall is filled with people going for grading, so a single ground can only give 3 pairs of practicers to spar. Guess what, I am one of the left out in the "6 in a row". So fuck it, I do the pattern by myself and get to spar with a blue belt. Guess what again? Something worst happened, normally the sparring will be in 1 min, mine only got like 15sec...Yes, 15 fucking seconds. I mean, what the fuck is wrong with this examiner? I mean, other people got at least 1 min to spar, so that the skills can be used and be seen too. Then why in the holy of fuck I only got 15 seconds? It's not fucking fair. But I can say this straight in the face of his, because he is the head of the grading department. Fuck, things really fucked up.

Just now went out with alvin, rui qi and nic to search for gundam models. I saw one gundam wing 0, so nice. The wing is transparent, it's too tempting. But I really don't have the money for these, still recovering from the damage I got from buying metal gear solid 4. Oh, talk about metal gear solid 4, I finally got it after 2 weeks of it's release and I completed it, now I want to unlock as many things as possible. Attention!!! There will be a game review soon, it has been a while since I review a game, so do look forward to it.

Talk about reviews, I'm going to put up movie reviews on the next few posts. Too many movies watched and too many reviews being held back, next few posts, movie review time.

trainings

2008-06-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

About last friday, I retake wushu once again. What? When I took wushu before? About a year ago, so the skills are pretty much forgotten. I can asure, things are much better when I took it one year ago. It might due to the fact that the student over there is around my age, instead of all kids, make me feel better when training. The coaches are all from china, which I got nothing to complain about. The coach funny lor, he asked me what weapon I like, I said "staff". Guess what? He ask me to get a broadsword, I was like "huh?". Nvm, I can learn staff next time. First day just some basic moves, second day got some of the "pattern". I almost slice my face on the second day, thank goodness.

Now I got one thing that bothers me a lot, my hair is dropping like hell. I was like, everytime I just shoove up my hair, I can find 1 or 2 threads of hair on my hand. What the fuck? I really need to go to the watson to get some hair growing tonic or something to grow back my hair.

DIDM camp....dead

2008-06-14T07:21:00.000-07:00

wah lao, hong kan lah. Ok, why first few words then start swearing, I only sleep one hour in the camp, then got stuff to do. We did photography on the first day, run around the town area to get the shots, especially the one which shows the rooftop. The clue is like shit, we asked around and we got 3 different answer. Bungis, chinatown and clark quay. We went to chinatown but no result, in the end we go clark quay and found that place. After taking the shots, we don't have time to take train back to RP, so we take cab, which cost 20+ dollars. Holy mother of fuck, so expensive. Tomorrow I will upload the pictures.

2nd day we got to do videography, so good lor, I like to do videography. I might want to go into movie industry and make movies. Anyway, we decide to make a love story, with the girl dies(sorry lah, yek). Seriously, it was so sad when it was mixed with the music. I almost cried when editing and watching it for the first time. what is the video? here you go:

Anyway, I like this camp, so fun. I will make more videos after this camp, with enough time.

being tagged, reviews postponed again.

2008-06-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

Ok, was tagged by xvan to do a survey of questions, so here I go.

1) whats your favourite cartoon character?
hm....hard one, it's been a while since I watch cartoon or anime. Ultraman, I guess can be considered.

2) where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Probably somewhere that can bring me peace or may be shaolin temple?

3) whats your favorite things that you do?
chatting with loved one.

4) do you think money can buy you happiness?
Definitely no, all the happiness that was bought by money are just lust, not happiness.

5) do you think your little wish that is kept in your heart will be filfilled?
may be or may be not. So far none of my wishes come through, all was in drain.

6) If you have a chance to go anywhere and I mean anywhere, where would you go?
May be a visit to the space.

7) what are you most afraid to lose?
friends and loved one. I was borned as a loner until when I reached my late teens and I never had once in love, so I cherish them a lot and don't want to lose them.

8) if you win $1 million, wat would you do?
$20 000 for my parents, $500 000 for studies and the rest will be in the bank.

9) what do you dream of doing in the future?
that is a tough question, I got a lot of stuff I wish to do in the future. I wish I can be a movie producer or a game designer.

10) list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Hm...He is cheerful, mature and make me feel young.

11) whats make you happpy?
wait, this is familiar. I think being with loved one will be the best and happiest time in my life.

12) what type of person do you hate most?
I hate criminals and especially those who don't change after being punished.

13) where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Working in CAPCOM/konami/Square enix or may be producing movies in HK?

14) if you can have a super-power, what would it be?
Able to transform and fight evil? Just like in kamen riders. Extreme case, I want a super-power that can restart the world.

15) what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Loved one, I think I did repeat this for a couple of times.

16) if its the end of the world, what will it be your last wish?
To finally tell my loved ones that I love her and them.

17) if you have a chance to choose, would you want to go back in time?
Yeah, I would want to change anything that is wrong with me in the past and even things that are wrong in the history.

18) what are you doing right now other than blogging?
Resting, since I just finished training.

19) are you courageous enough to tell the person you like him/her?
May be and may be not, I am timid at this kind of things.

20) wat will you do when you have 24 hours of free time?
spend every single minute and second with my loved one.

INSTRUCTIONS: remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions and then tagged 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Next, notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Wayne, mabel, jerelynn, isk, ruiqi, puay yek, ting hui and wei hao.

Tons of movie reviews

2008-06-06T08:26:00.000-07:00

Ok, time for some movie reviews. This post will review a lot of movies, 8 movies if I'm not wrong, especially I hold 7 of them quite a while already. First one we will start with "What happened in vegas"

This movie start with a guy, Jack, lost his job and a woman, joy, lost her love. In order to de-stress themselves, they went to las vegas with their best friend respectively. At vegas, Jack and Joy met by coincident and find themselves to be able to chat with each other. They got themselves drunk and get into married by accident and of course, bed. The next day, they tried to explain things that everything is wrong, who knows that they won a jackpot and they are now fighting over the prize money. They fought on court and the judge asked them to live as a husband and wife for 6 months, if things don't work out, the divorce will be effective.

During the 6 months, they did a lot of funny things, to avoid the spoiler, I will not tell what happened at the end. Overall, this is a pretty funny movie, the comedy part are good, the romantic part aren't bad. One thing I want to complain is the selection of main actor and actress. Cameron diaz was way too old to be in that character already, ashton kutcher face looks too young. Cameron's and others' acting skills are ok, just the selection of character is not good. Overall, this is a pretty good movie, worth watching.

Alright, 2nd movie review, this movie series is being said as one of the best movie ever made and never once had so much hype other then one movie in 2006. What movie is it? Indiana jones and the kingdom of crystal skull.

This movie was set about 20 years later after the event of "the last crusade". Indy was being brought to a weapon testing site at nevada by some russian to find something to allow russian to build a new weapon. Indy helped them to find it, but in the end, indy managed to escape. The FBI then investigate Indy to see whether is he involve in treason. Indy decide to leave US and go to london for a new life, until a young man appears to ask him to find oxley, indy's good friend. It seems that oxley was involved in searching some artifact and then disappear. Indy had to travel deep in maxico and even amazon, while dealing with the russian army who are searching for the artifact.

Ok, no more for the plot spoiler. This movie is indeed one of the best movie I've watched recently, but I still got something to rant about and it is some of the worst thing to see on screen. CGI, why the fuck is there so many CGI in this movie, if it has to be CGI, just make it to cover some of the dangerous such as the falling from the waterfall and the UFO, that's enough. There is no need to have so many CGI, why? It is depressing to see so many fucking CGI, especially it is action movie. Assholes...

The other thing I want to complain is how goofy this movie can be. I haven't watch the temple of doom, but I already heard that it is goofy. This movie was also quite goofy, I don't understand why lucas can only come out with alien, why not something special? Like human from the future/past, gods or any other things. Of all things, martians... Come on, martians are already old, stop the martian thing.

Ok, 3rd review...but this is going to be a long one because I'm going to review 6 movies. It is a movie series of course. This movie is also one of the best movie series ever created, it was a sleeper hit. It also affect almost everyone in one of the state in US. What movie? One of the oldest movie I ever watched, Rocky.

This first installment of the series started with a debt collector, but with a good heart. His passion is boxing, but all he wanted is small fights. Until one day, the world heavyweight champion, apollo creed came to Philadelphia to pick an opponent for an exhibition bout. He picked rocky because of his nickname, Itallian stallion. Rocky at first declined, but he decide to go for the distant and start to train with his manager, mickey. At the day of the bout, rocky won the fight by split decision...

This movie was at first not to meant a big hit, but it the movie attract people with big heart and dream, in short, it is very moralising. This movie shows how a person goes the distant, fighting the impossible and how a person who don't know how to confess(me is one example), confessed. Not the mention the fight is perfect, for the first time, I had shouted: "right hook!!! dodge!!! straight!!! AW, Goddamned it, don't you know how to dodge?" Yes, it is that good. It had no flaws, really, no flaws.

Ok, it is late, the rest I will make it up tomorrow. Nites.

a little long

2008-06-03T08:33:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I blog, but I can't blog too much, since tomorrow I got to film the sequel that I've done few months back, I will blog more about it like tomorrow or thursday.

weird dreams

2008-05-21T09:10:00.000-07:00

seriously, I also have a certain kind of weird dream. It's not like always the same kind of dream, but it appears too often. The most often dream I ever had is fighting. Like last night, I dreamt about a father, dauther and son came from foreign country, I think they are russian or something, can't remember, they want to find opponent to fight. It's a 3 round fight, one round one opponent and that fighter cannot rest, so it's not fair for our fighter. Most of the fighters lost, seems like a pretty tough opponent, so left only a few colour belts. They then picked me, guess they just want to humiliate me, since I look plum and clumbsy. Well, guess what, I own their ass. I beat them like no prob and the leave with the title left behind for me. I forgot what's the title, but it's an honourable one.

That was not the only fighting dream, I got dream about scenario like in the Jackie chan movie, fought a lot of enemy then a boss, finally got the girl out and then the base or HQ exploded just like in "Police story 2". Also got dream before like in "Mr vampire", I will be fighting off paranormal beings with a trusty weapon, most of them time is a sword, sometime might be spear or just my bear fist and magic to finish off the monster. It was like, I like fighting, but no fighting when I'm sleeping, I want to sleep. Although once in a while is ok, but not so many time. I guess it symbolised something, I really got to ask around, see who can interpret my dream.

Talking about fighting, my sequel of dawn of twin vengence will soon start shooting, I got the script-writer, actor and my bro for choreography practcing. Hope can get a good one on screen. Same like last time, I will be the one directing, editing and choreogaphing. A lot of job, huh?

Injured

2008-05-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

Ok, postponed of my upcoming reviews, need some hiatus. I got lots of movies to review, but let's just take a break on it.

Friday went out with mabel, wayne, ben, sky and linus. Watched what happens in vegas, which was a last minute decision, at first want to watch iron man. Btw, the next review will be what happens in vegas, although it intended to be another movie. After the movie, ben left first and then we just scroll around causeway point, looking for future camera to buy. Mabel got a keychain for herself, I guess. I can't see what is it, so I guess it would be a hello kitty. Then we walk again and then end up sitting outside the MRT station and chat a lot. Just before we depart to our slumbers, I realised we forgot to eat dinner. What's worse is all of them got things to eat at home, which I don't have. So I got instant noodles and a packet of milk. All of them are great, they just accompany me while I'm eating, so touched. Finally we bidded farewell and went home.

2 weeks ago, I had a sparring with this senior who was trained in taekwondo for many years. I can tell you, his kicks are some powerful, it's like a 10kg big rock shoot out from a cannon and hit your body. It's that hard, I'm not making this up. I thought the previous one was fast enough, but this one even faster. I basically land no kicks on him and he kicked me like...easy. I basically did a lot of blocking and hitting if I saw the chance, but guess what I got from the multiple blocks? Injuries. My left arm were swollen for a couple of days and my right wrist hurt real bad that I went to the chinese doctor a week after the sparring, which is today. The doctor said that it is internal injury. WTF, internal injury? No wonder so pain and never subsides even when I apply lotion. What made things worse is that yesterday I help out at my father's stall, sometime need to chop then my hand hurts. My chopping on that day sucks, I can't chop more than 2 servings. My mother did the job if I can't and my father handles the peak hour. Even during peak hour, I'm not doing the chopping, I still have to stress my right hand to do work. The entire day I just bitting my own teeth to bear with the pain. At the end of the day, my wrist can't work to properly, a simple twist can sets me into pain, which means taking out wallet from my back pocket will be hell. I can't even handle my mouse normally, it'll hurts. Now my hand was bandaged and cannot remove for a couple of days, if still pain, have to go back to the doctor.

new class

2008-04-30T00:27:00.000-07:00

Ok, it seems that there is too many movie reviews, so let's have a break and talk about something else. What should we talk about? Oh yeah, my new class W65N. Now I am year 2 in RP, currently doing my interactive and digital media. Seriously, I never once like programming this much and I always look forward to the next one. Class had never been boring, there is so many common thing in this class. Close to everyone is retro, anime lover and they like to draw. I'm not detesting anime neither I like it, so I'm neutral, I don't draw well too. Another thing that really got me interested is that there is so many martial artist in this class. Wushu, judo, capoiera and taekwondo. Wow, almost everyday got a small tournament. I bet the facilitators don't want to be too cocky, unless he/she thinks he/she lived too long. We watch old movies and listen songs, and I mean old, can be as far back to the 70s. I like this class, everyday so fun. Next time I'll tell you how crazy we can get to, but the next post will be a movie reiew again, so stay tune.

movie reviews

2008-04-16T08:15:00.000-07:00

Yup, like the title, this is a movie review post that I held it for quite a long time. Let me take you back to the 80s, the time where all the classic movies were made and were never surpassed until now. I'm going to review one of them, it is one of the greatest comedy, but to me, it is the greatest comedy movie I ever watch. Not one movie of this time can surpass it. Not only that, it was ranked first on ign.com as the best comedy movie of all time. So after saying this much, I'm going to reveal the name of the movie, it is "Ghostbusters".

Normally people will start to say, "isn't ghostbusters a cartoon that got made into a movie?" Wrong, ghostbusters got a cartoon series because it is so success, it was made into a cartoon that ran for 7 seasons and a lot of action figures. Let's get started on the review, ok?

Ghostbusters, the theme song was a big hit at that time too and still I love the theme song. Basically, the plot start with 3 university professor, researching on paranormal stuff and finally got their first encounter in the library. They were egon, the scientific guy, ray, always energetic and peter, the guy with the heart of calm. When they met the ghost, they can't do anything but run since the ghost is angry. Well, after that, they were chased out of the university because of the lack of operating funds for their department. With their reseach and the first experience, they go into bussiness themselves of the ghostbusting career. At first they didn't get much customers, until a women named dana approach them for some paranormal help. That gives them a little more fund to prolong the bankcrupcy. Finally they got their first ghostbusting work and there they go, drive the ecto-1 and head to the hotel. Although they have the equipment, the ghost trap and the proton packs, they never actually test it before. Whoa, luckily I'm not the first customers. They went through the humourous way and finally got the ghost. That is when their career got picked up and they became celebrity.

Cut all the way to the end, it's too long to write out all the plot. They reseach a lot and then found out that the multiple appearance of ghost is because of the arrival of a destruction god. They got the god eliminated and save NYC.

I can't find anything that is bad about this movie, the movie is 130 minutes long and I laugh 125 minutes, the 5min is credit. The special effects are cool, in fact, the CG inside sometime don't look like from the 80s, more like from the current time. The jokes inside never repeat, everytime there is a joke, it is totally new. So I laugh my way throughout the movie.

There is a sequel to it, ghostbusters II. To cut short, this is a good movie too, but not as good as the first one. If you all can get to see this 2 movies, I recommend you to do so, it is really nice.

One thing I want to complain about, nothing related to the film. Will there be a ghostbusters III? Well, if there are home alone 3, psycho 3, spiderman 3, free willy 3, a bunch of sequels to scary movie, america pie that rape the ass of hollywood, I don't see the reason of not having ghostbusters 3.

I am so touched...

2008-04-09T04:49:00.000-07:00

Ok, this post is not going to be a movie/game review. Just now I came across this video that is so true, so touching, I tears in my heart because it touches to the deepest depth. It is a video telling what ultraman had taught us through the tv series. A lot of people might still think that ultraman is childish or it is violent, but they don't know the message that was conveyed to the audience. I notice that as people grow up, they lose faith in what they believe to be true when they are still a child. Soon, they have doubt in them and sometime even denied them. Ultraman series had been going on for 40+ years, yet the message conveyed to us was how to be a better person. Some watched it might get the message and follow the message, but some might not. About this video, it is telling us what each ultraman had taught us. Sorry it is in chinese, so I will put the translation here.

http://www.ultramanclub.com/2008-1/200816195025.htm

Here is the translation of each message conveyed to us.

Ultraman: He taught us the importance and the meaning of life.
Being the first ultraman that came to earth as a defender, he knew that life is so fragile, yet so precious. Because we live, we have dreams, love, friends and future. Although life can be shattered so easily, but the experiences of all those mentioned above was nevertheless, priceless. Don't give up life, life is very precious because they are things that cannot be gained without being alive.

Ultraseven: He taught us to treasure the un-replacesible things, love and friend.Love and friends, 2 things that is VERY important in a person's life. While ultraseven is on earth, there is no one to help him. Everytime he fights the enemy, he fights them alone. But because the friendships and love from the friends on earth, he continues to protect them. Friendships and love is always the supporting pillar for each one of us, without them, we can collapse anytime there is a storm in our life.

Ultraman Jack: He taught us the true meaning of love.
Brotherly love, parents love, life partner love, etc. There are tons of love in the world, but sometime we take for granted of it or we don't really know the meaning of love. What is love? When our parents nag at us, the words sometime might be harsh, but there is always love deep down in their words. There is a famous qoute in the series that is still echoing in the series and our life, the ultra 5 oath. Not going to say out the whole thing, but the oath through the surface, we won't get the true meaning, only if we look into it, we know that this is the true meaning of love.

Ultraman Ace: He taught us how to trust other people
This is so far the most important lesson we should learnt and even I'm still learning it, trust. Every relationship begin with trust and relationships were able to continue because there is trust. People often don't believe each other, they afraid that that other person might hurt them. This is particularly obvious in Singapore, you can practically see it everywhere, even my mother told me not to trust other people than yourself. See, without trust, there will always be conflicts and wars. Is it so hard to trust other people? So what if you trust the other person and you yourself got hurt? At least you make effort to start/continue a relationship, that person will be at fault because he/she abuse that trust. Even though you were hurt because trusting other people, never give up in trusting people. A little trust can change the world and make the world without stranger, that is what I strongly believe.

Ultraman Taro: He taught us how to independent
Ultraman taro is the youngest among the ultra brothers, thus he depend a lot on his elder brothers. Again, this is especially obvious in singapore. People always depend on the others to do things and help them. They never think of doing the things themselves before seeking for help. Although friends are there for us, but we have to be independent in our lives.

Ultraman Leo: He taught us how to be a person with strong-will.
Ultraman leo, being the only ultraman not from M78 on earth. He was on earth because his home planet was destroyed, thus he vowed to protect earth because it is a second home planet to him. When he is fighting and if he lost, he never give up. He will always train and return with solution. Without a strong will, you tend to give up easily and then just forget about it. To get true success in life, first you must have strong will.

Ultraman 80: He taught us to treasure the unforgetable memories.
No matter what memories we had, bad or good, we should treasure it. We can always take it out from our mind and look at it, we will remember all the sweet and sour of our life. Even it is a bad memories, we can use it as lesson and guide for our life. Just treasure the memories.

Ultraman mebius: you will not fight alone.
This so far another best lesson I've learnt, friends are always with us, with you. Even I got my up and down in life, in the past, I'm always alone when I got my up and down. Not now, I got my buddies, they are always with me to go through all those. Another good quote, "the heart of believing can change impossible to possible" from ultraman mebius. Believe in yourself, your friends, your lover or whoever you can think of, because believing makes impossbile possible. You will not be fighting alone. Even when you fight at the areana, your supporters will be at your back, believing in you, so you must believe in yourself to make it.

This is the message that was conveyed to us by ultraman. Ultraman is not only for entertainment, but also education.

movie review again

2008-04-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

Now, I had to admit that I watched a lot of movies recently. As I said before, movies and games are meant to be entertaining, so if it is a bad game/movie, you will swear. Yeah, this post is going to be another movie reviews. As some of you people who knows me, you know that I don't like horror movies. It is because of the weak storyplot, suck shit ending and totally not-scary scenes. But hey, this horror movie that I just watched wasn't that kind of horror movies that I don't like.

Yes, this is "rule #01". From the producer or director of the maid. Talk about "the maid", I had one simple complain of that movie. Why doesn't the dead maid the main ghost that appears in the movie? Instead, make way for a random maid got shadowed by the shadow of the coffin, then she just ran like 5km just to jump off a building to die. I mean, what the hell? There are a lot of high rise buidling in singapore, so why does she has to run so fucking far, just to commit suicide? That's bullshit.

The movie starts off by seeing a low ranked police giving fine to a driver who didn't tie safety belt. Then he checked the back of the car and discovered a dead girl body, suddenly the drive brokes out with a gun and shoot all limbs with a bullet, before he shoot at the head, the police and the the driver saw the back of the car rises and the girl sits up. The police then shoots the driver in the head and faints.

After he woke up and return to his post, the superior put him to a new department. It is miscellaneous affairs department, basically this department handle shits like ghostly stuff. This department is sad, only 3 staff, the police(let's call him A), his superior(let's call him B) and a adminstration staff.

So what this department do, you can never imagine police do all these shit. The department, handle ghost stuff, if a human or more people were possessed, they shoot them in the head. In the movie, it explains that once the ghost possessed someone, just a simple touch can possess another person and then control the body. What happened to the body previously, do they return to normal? No, their souls were shattered and left only an empty shell. Everything was done in secret, so no one ever saw a police going around shooting the possessed.

At the end of the movie, A got possessed by the driver he shoot at the beginning of the movie, through many plans from the driver's ghost. At the end, A shot B in the head and now he got the whole department under his control.

Ok, enough of the summarising. This movie is not bad for a horror movie, although the scary parts suck quite hard, because it is the worst scaring scenes I ever seen in my life. Most of the ghosts are just random wondering ghosts you can see on the streets, provided if you can see ghosts.

The story, yes, the story is pretty good for horror movie. There is actually a plot, a fucking plot, explaining why the ghost to do stuff to the living. Yet, it is very boring at the beginning of the movie, just like in the Jaw movie, the early part got too many dialouge, so many that I don't even want to count them. After A met his first ghost encounter as a police in that department, that is where the plot starts to brings up the hype of the audiences. Although having a decent plot, the ending sucks. I bet most of my friends don't understand the ending including me, until I analyse the whole movie after I got home and then tell them. Seriously, I have to get into the detail of the movie, analyse the plot and then come out of the explanation how the ending goes. Well, once you understand the ending, it's actually not that bad of an ending.

Actors....sigh*. I had only one complain of this thing, why the hell fiona xie got so little scenes in the movie? Why is there so fucking little scene she's in there? On the poster and the credit, you'll see "starring blahblahblah, fiona xie". Starring fiona xie? So why she appear so much lesser than other characters which are starring them too?

Another thing I find weird is the reason of why the police want to kill the possessesd? I mean, since the police dealing with ghost, that means the govt also admit the existence of paranormal phantasm. Sure that there is a way of getting ghost out of the body than killing them, may be they can co-operate with religion groups to deal with these cases. Another thing that I find it familiar of the police going around, shooting the possessed, it reminds me something from the past. Well, those who watch a lot of older movies and born around or before my time, you know what movie I'm talking about. Yes, ghostbusters...

A group of people running around the city, blasting ghost and then catch them. So the ghostbusters can invent gadgets to catch ghost, why not the government or the police? Talking about ghostbusters, the next post will be review on ghostbusters.

Overall, this movie is not bad, it's worth to watch it in cinema.

movie review

2008-03-28T09:16:00.000-07:00

ok, before you people read this review, I want you people to take note of something. All these are just my opinion as an audience, other's may differ from me. Another this is that this review will have a lot of vulgarity, because I have no tolerance for bad movies and games. Ok, so I went to watch this movie with a buddy and friend. At first want to watch other show, but in the end chose this, since no one watched before. It is a new basketball movie, called slam. Yeah, slam a piece of shit onto the fucking face of the audience.

First thing I want to complain is the theme of the movie. Making a sport movie and just featuring sports alone, is the worst concept ever can be thought of for a movie. When you see a sport movie, it sure that it will suck hard because it is a mother load of shit, ready to be dumped on your head.

The story starts with a school kid, don't know what is the level, since it is such a piece of shit. Why? Because it didn't explain what level of education they are at, not even the age of the characters were mentioned. I guessed that they are just secondary school, judging from the face. The school kid named mouth plays basketball with a friend, monkey and monkey's cousin, jason....wait, mouth? monkey? Who in the world a parents would give that kind of shit name to their own son? Mouth? Monke? If that were the names given to them, why not name their son with the name like "shit", "fucker", "asshole"?

So when they play basketball in the school, the seniors came in and challenged them. Mouth and the company lost, then got into a fight with them. Mouth was actually training hard to be like his iodl, michael jordan. I think it's michael jordan, don't know much about basketball players. So they lost and humiliated, mouth was depress of being called "not suitable for basketball" by the seniors. What an asshole.

Mouth was living with the father, don't know where the hell the mother went. Can be dead or just fucking divorced for all I care. They took part a tournament held by adidas, because the seniors were taking part too, just to revenge. Before the tournament starts, a lot of stuff happened and mouth was locked by his father at home to study. He got no choice but to sneak out of the house to go for training.

So in the end, mouth and company finally to the final and lost.

Ok, here comes the complains. Why in the holy mother of fuck does this have to be made? This movie sucks so hard that it fucks, it is so fucking sucks that it don't deserve the timeslot in the cinema. Let's take a look at the description on gv.com.sg and the review from other place:

SLAM is set in the fast-paced, action-packed world of street basketball, in the rapidly modernizing city of Beijing, host of the 2008 Olympics. This story covers the strong universal themes of self-discovery, self-empowerment and the truth of never ever giving up. Featuring an all original soundtrack by platinum breaking Taiwan Hip Hop group Machi, and starring in his film acting debut Andrew Chou AKA: Machi Di Di.

"SLAM is undeniably one of the best sports movies made this year."
- MTV Asia Movie Review

"Exhilarating...action packed! Not to be missed."
- NBA China

Fast pace? Oh, you mean the shaking of the camera? It shake so hard that I can barely see what's happening on the scene. Talk about the camera, the camera work sure sucks. As a sport movie, the main thing is the sport itself. So in the case, it is the basketball. But why the basketball was offscreen so many times? I can't see the ball when it was shot or dunk.

Action pack? It should say, shit pack. Let's compare with another basketball movie, kung fu dunk. Yes, the one by Jay chou. In Kung fu dunk, the music and camera works very well with each other, it brings up the hype from the audience. Compare to slam, which don't even bring up 1% of hype from the audience. The music is dull, adding with the shitty camera works, it became a shitload of fuck, it's like a cruel joke to the audience.

Talking about audience, you guess how many people are in the cinema? 7... yes, it is fucking 7 and I'm not making this up. Despite it was just being broadcast, but before we went to watch it, there a few days interval only. So I supposed not many people watch it and I presume there will have a lot of people. Yet, only 7 audiences in the cinema including the 3 of us. Shit the fuck...

Another thing sucks is the name of the characters. The main 4 characters are called, mouth, monkey, jason and xiao xiao(roughly translated as small small). Like I said above, who the fuck would give such a bad name to their child. The name is so fucking weird that I don't even want to think of it.

One worst thing and the most important thing in movies, editing. The movie was VERY FUCKING poorly edited. Scenes when has to be cut were not cut, yet when it was not supposed to cut, it was being cut off. For example a scene in the movie, the father discover how bad the academic results of mouth was, he threw to mouth and ask him to pick it up and read. Guess what, the short one sec where mouth bent and pick up the result slip were cut. That is one of the part where it was not supposed to cut, it was being cut off. It's like the entire movie was poorly edited. Guess what? It is the fucking director do the cutting! So the director did such a bad job? He better not let me saw him on the streets, or he will fuck himself, forced by me.

One good thing about the movie and I mean only ONE good thing in the movie is that xiao xiao is a pretty girl, it steal the spotlight of the show.

This movie is so bad, that it is not worth to even mention the name. It shits for the birds. Yeah, for those who love basketball, it right up your alley...more like up your ass. Don't watch this movie, this one sucks ass.

Film done.

2008-03-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

This film I use the crappy window movie maker, which don't have much function, I try to make it good. It seems that some sound effect can't match the timing, so fuck it, I'm going to get a better movie maker. There you go, my first film ever made, suckier than I thought because of that fucking window movie maker.

Give me comment so I can improve it.

Now I am very frustrated

2008-03-12T08:02:00.000-07:00

seriously, just now we are having sparring in the training, guess what? I can't spar, reason is that there is no one that can spar with me. I was like "come on, there is a junior black belt over there and I can spar with him or any one of the senior black belt is ok, as if I never spar with a black belt before." In actual fact, almost everytime I spar, I spar with the black belt, so fuck it, I got no sparring. Damn, how I wanted a sparring and finally a sparring session, then now I can't spar, damn it.

Ok, friends. I'm going to make a film this friday with the help of my bro, after it's done, I will put it up and show you guys.

2 movie reviews

2008-03-10T04:48:00.000-07:00

Today and yesterday, I watched 2 movies, but one on the DVD and one at the cinema, now I'm going to review them.

First one will be D-wars, which is also called dragon wars. This movie was not shown in singapore, I just happened to find it in a shop and heard from a friend, so I bought it and watch it at home. Wow, holy shit, the graphic is good.

The story is about a legend. Every 500 years, an imoogi(serpent) which do lots of good deeds will be given the yuu-yi-joo(a pearl with magic), this pearl will allow them to turn into dragons and rise to heavan. 500 years ago, 1507, the deity afraid of the pearl get into the evil imoogi, thus they hide it into a girl in korea, then sent a warrior along his master to protect the girl. The pearl will get it's form at the age of 20, then the girl will give up her life to bring out the pearl for the imoogi. Unfortunately, the warrior and the girl fall in love with each other, while the evil imoogi came for the pearl, bringing it's army and destroyed the city. The warrior decide to bring the girl and escape, it defies their destiny. But the evil imoogi caught up with them, both of them commited suicide and the imoogi lost the pearl. In order to get the pearl, he has to wait for another 500 years. 500 years later, in LA. The warrior was reborned as a reporter and the girl reborned as a...well, I don't know, just a normal girl. The evil imoogi find it's chance and start chasing the girl and the reporter while he destroys anything in it's path, cars, buildings, everything. But the FBI found of about this legend and sent troops for the girl too(well, to kill her to prevent moe destruction.), the evil imoogi 's army kept them very busy because the human army can't win the serpent's army. To skip a lot, in the end the evil imoogi was killed because the good imoogi(which lost his chance to become a dragon 500 years ago), turned into a dragon(read above to find out the reason) and the story ends.

Well, summary for the plot, hope not too many spoilers. The graphic for the monsters and dragons are pretty good. Quite realistic, but somehow when it was a close up to the monster, the imoogi is pretty stand out, which means they don't know how to merge CG with real thing in a scene, got to work on it.

The movie is pretty good overall, but there are things that sucks. The scene where the army fights, well, the imoogi's army armed with armour, sword/axe/spear and a shield, but there are not blood nor wounds when it cuts the enemy. Same goes to the scene in 1507. The story is pretty lacking in this movie, everything was focused too much on the imoogi and it's army. It didn't explain how did the reporter and the girl fall in love? I mean, come on, who can fall in love while there is a horde of monster army coming after you and a huge serpent, that is big enough to swallow a whale? Even if it is possible, why the girl said something like "I will love you for all eternaty(sp)? It is not strong love I guess, the time is so short to develop such a strong love. In the US, the critic of this movie wasn't too good because of the storyplot, I agree.

Ok, the second movie, which I just watched it few hours ago. It is sky of love, I heard moved many people in Japan to tears. It was based on a cell-phone novel(very common in Japan). It is sad enough for me to go watch a love movie alone...

This summary will contain HUGE spoiler, so skip forward to the review if you don't want spoiler.

The movie start when a girl, mika, lost her cell-phone and found it in the library, the girl is surprised that all the messages and data were deleted, then a guy called her. Both of them started chatting all day long through the phone, both of them seems happy chatting with each other and this continues for the entire summer vacation. At the first day of the new semester, the guy, hiro, finally met her. At first mika though hiro is a thug because of his white hair. But soon she found out that he is actually pure in heart, both also found that they are in love with each other and then they were both a couple. But becoming an item attracts the jealousy from the ex-girlfriend of hiro, saki. Saki did something to mika and hiro promised that he will protect her forever. Well, revenge aren't just like that, saki did more sabotage on mika, but it was put to a stop by hiro...for a while. At one day, mika found out that she was pregnant, it was hiro's. She asked him out to a cafe a talk things out, hiro ran out right after hearing the news. A while later, he returned with baby products, he promised that he will take care of the baby and give happiness to mika and their child. Both of them convince hiro's parents, but some trouble with mika's parents. He even went to dye his hair black and cut it short, sincere huh? Saki's revenge was not over yet, she do rough things on mika, which ends up mika's miscarriage(sp). Both hiro and mika was heart broken, they promised each othe to return to the spot where they met face to face for the first time, to pray for their dead child. 2nd year of high school(JC in singapore), Hiro stop turning up to class and reply to mika's messages. Mika finally went to his house with her friend to attend a party at hiro's home...room exactly. Mika found out that hiro is actually dating other girl and then they broke off. They became like stranger even when they crossed path in school, well, at least hiro did that. Every year christmas eve, mika went to pray for her child, found out that there are offering(baby glove) and a snow man(something like a tomb-stone for their child), it seems that hiro did come. Finally mika graduated from high school and attend an university, she was dating other guy too, but she still visit her child every year. She found out that hiro DID come visiting their child, they crossed path once again, but this time hiro seems not very well. Mika knew that she still love hiro, but she cannot forget the guy she is dating currently. She knew that even if she goes with hiro, nothing going to change. The following year, the guy finally proposed to mika before mika visit her child and mika agreed. At her child "grave", she saw a man, but not hiro, it's his good friend. The friend said out all the truth, hiro broke up with her 4 years ago because he was dignosed(sp) that he got cancer. Hiro is fighting with cancer and waiting for mika, he never forget her, because he is still wearing the couple ring. The guy asked her to go back to hiro, because they are still loving each other a lot. Mika went back and spent the rest of the time with hiro until hiro finally passed away.

Whew, like typing out the whole story sia. But this movie is great, although it is sad for me to watch it alone, this movie should be watched with couple. Ok, the story is very good, everything is in detailed, no confusion. The actors are pretty good too, they brought out the feeling well. This movie is indeed touching, even a cold blooded person like me tears, the movie is so saddening, touching and loving. The only thing I want to complain is nothing to do with the movie, why in the world's name I watch this movie alone and not with a girlfriend?

Voice out...

2008-03-07T05:39:00.000-08:00

Ok, there will be a serious amount of vulgar words going to be in this post. But I need to voice out some stuff or I will drown by it, so forgive me.

First thing, which is also one of the current issue I'm going to rant about it, holiday.

Why in the holy mother of fuck does this holiday need to be so god damn fucking long? I understand that school give holiday to allow student to rest, but RP is a school simulating working condition, SINCE WHICH WORKING PLACE GIVES SUCH A GOD DAMN LONG HOLIDAY? I know it is still a school, but compare to other poly, they got one month. One month is more than enough for holiday, we don't need a shitty 2 months holiday, that will drive me fucking nuts. Now I am boring like shit stain on some boring book, no one gives a shit on my lif, it is fucking boring. I know I did say I will train during the holiday, but I can't do it 24 hour everyday in the entire holiday! If I can do that, I must have shit in my brain or I'm dead. In short, long fucking holiday should be ban, just one month is enough, one fucking month.

Second thing, lust.

Ok, not lust for anything, at least not love for now. I now desire sparring more than anything. Hey, sparring is needed in grading, so why is there so little sparring in training? What will happen if we don't have much experience of sparring when grading, we're fucked. In the name of everything in all dimension and time, more sparring.

Last one, games.

Ok, not a game review yet, but just some rant about shitty games that comes around in my collection. Why is the world is there so many shitty games fucking up on my consoles and time? Games are there to entertain us, so why is it so shitty? I rather have shit stain on my face than playing shitty games. But there is no choice, even with the usage of internet, you can only experience how shitty something is by playing it yourself. Like in my previous post in my xanga blog, you know some of the shitty games that shouldn't exist at all. In fact, there isn't any reason for that game to exist. It is just going to fuck up your time and your console, so why do you need a piece of shit fucking up your time. Play good games, not some shitty one. Make good games and not some horrifying shitty diarea shitty game.

Whew, I am much better after voicing out. Next post will be normal again.

Teaching

2008-02-29T05:43:00.001-08:00

Few days ago, which is wednesday, is my first day of teaching. Ok, I tuition other people before, but not to a bunch of kids. So basically I am a conversational chinese language trainer, but I have to start as an assitant first, but I relief one trainer that happened to unable to come on that day. So, I'm a trainer at the first day. The kids are pretty....not annoying, but they are very keen on what they are going to learn for the day and they aren't too "hyperactive" until I need to shout at them to stop. I enjoy the first day of teaching so many people. Wait, is it possible for me to go into teaching instead of game designer? No way, I won't let an enjoyment to spoil my dream.

Well, last post I said that I will post the picture of my current collection of all the figures, here you go.

the first level of the collections.

second level, cloud and sephiroth is at the very back, but you ca see their swords.

The top of the collection, because they are too big.

new stuff I bought last few days and it cost me a bomb.

2008-02-25T20:53:00.000-08:00

Few days ago, I went to chinatown as usual to get some of my collection as well as walking with my friend to see what things to get for his sister. Ok, let's start with my stuff first, I got 2 sets of collection, one was ordered way before chinese new year and one just saw it randomly last few weeks.

This whole sets made me waited for about a couple of months, it cost me a $100 to get all of them. I know you people might ask why I get something so expensive? Well, this set is a pretty old one and thus that price.

Oh my god, this is my first rah figure. Oh, you asking what is rah? It means Real Action Hero, any figure in rah are the most realistic figure you can even imagine and that ultraseven, is rah. One thing that is for sure, rah figures are expensive, but that ultraseven is quite an old model since it was out for about one year. It cost me $150. There are more expensive rah, I show you people one of the most expensive rah that my friend got:

Look at the one in the middle, that's what my friend recently got and let you guess how much is that zoffy? It is $900!!! Whoa, unless I struck 4d(which I don't believe), I will get it. Well, since that I got new stuff and took pictures on it, let's play it a little...

seven, who you using your telekinesis at?

ouch, hey, seven, that's me you using telekinesis on!

Okok, seven, I return you the money, don't throw that thing on me...

Next post I will put up all the current collection I have.