*sigh, is this the end? Or just me being paranoid?

everything was ok for me until when I got home from wing chun at 3pm, saw something that gave one of the biggest shock in my life. I shall not say what it is, but it is about BGR. I know sometime I am being paranoid and shit, but you can't blamed me that I was shocked when I saw that message. I behaved that way because I love her, although I said those words, but you can't blame that because I love her, I reacted that way. I want her happy if she can find it, but something can be sure, I won't be ok for sometime until my heart got used to it. I seriously hoped that message does not implies to her, but to other people that she knows. But it is true, I wished he happy and I will go back to the darkest time of my life. Anyway, my life was in dark for the whole time, nothing has been good for me.

Dawn of twin vengence final episode

This is the final episode of the action short film I've made, I took a bit of rest after the shooting before I edit this movie, that explains why it took so long to come up here. Nevertheless, let's enjoy it. Oh yeah, my acting sucks.

Super angry about this thing.

http://www.ultramanclub.com/2009-4/2009424225342.htm

This is an article about how the media in china talked about ultraman. To me, you can say anything bad to me, but not ultraman. I watched ultraman ever since I was a kid, I don't idolise them, they are hero to me. They taught me a lot of things in life. Sorry for those who can't understand what it is talking. It is saying that in a news report, the reporter said that ultraman is a violent TV show that should be banned in china. It is even banned in Japan. First of all, it is not banned, NOT BANNED! It is all over the world, people idolised them and rumoured that the director of spiderman plans to shoot a new movie about it. So why is it banned? Stupid fuck. Secondly, why is it violent? May be the showa era, a bit of blood. But now got more CG and better choreograhed fights. So it is choreograhed fights, why is it violent? Then can banned every action films, banned every single violent movies, or even banned the existence of martial arts schools in china since it is all about fighting. Fuck them, don't they know these are essential? Imagine you got alien or kaijiu invading the town or earth, what you going to do? Throw shoes at them? Some more it is just a TV show with choreographed fights and CG, a TV show with morale values and TV shws that allow kids to hero-lise them, why not let them watch it? Fuck whatever is humiliating ultraman, fuck whatever is critising them and fuck those who fucks around ultraman.

Something to stress about.

Yeah, I still got to stress something that I had been concerning for months. The school is finally starting, next week to be exact. Seriously, ever since the secondary school to poly, that 6 months holiday, it is killing me to have a long holiday. Thank goodness there is a hong kong trip with the wushu peeps, or else I will rot at home. But because of this trip to HK, I'm closer to 5 other wushu peeps and even formed our own group. Glad that I've made more friends. Other than the school holiday being long, it is also very empty. I tried to keep myself busy, but it is still...empty. I don't know what's lacking, may be that thing? But what ever it is, I'm going to find it and solve it.

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super stunt

Last friday, during the training, coach said: "Let's do some strength training". Whoa, that is the main course of the training. We did frog jumps and a lot of other strength training for the entire 2 hours. At the end of the day, everyone got their leg trembling. Most of the people even got trouble walking, up and down the stairs will be hell for us. I got trouble even trying to sit down and stand up, the thigh muscle was so pain. Thanks for the tiger palm paste, my leg got better and able to go for training today, or else even got trouble to run and jump.

Training resume

The training of wushu finally resume back to normal. Seriously, I really was sick of doing nothing for the entire week last week. Talking about training, I increase the density of the training for now until the end of the nafa test. I got confident in most of the stuff except pull up. Shit, what should I do? Recently, I think I was thinking of someone almost everyday, everytime, everywhere. I don't know wha should I do, but I made a promise to her. So all I can do now is wait, hopefully she feels the same thing as I am...