Supernova

Literally, even my songlist on this blog got the song called "supernova". Shits was thrown in my face, hell broke loose in my world, my world plunged into darkness once again. I found out that she got a bf. Yes, I told her that she can get a bf within the time, but please tell me if you got one. That is what hurts most, I got suspicious on it, found out about it, then she tells me. I at first cannot take it, in fact, I cannot take that fact. Now that the fact came and slap onto my face and said: "Here you go, take it!" I don't know what should I do now? I love her but I also can't love her, I care for her but I can't care for her. I think I will go crazy. This is also one reason why I got into martial arts, I'm ready to devote my life to martial arts, not other things already...I really don't know already....

Frastrating

Recently, I am very frastrated. Things don't work for shit, my mind don't think for good, my life don't lighten up anytime. I hope things don't result into what I am thinking about now. I hope that it is just me being paranoid. I really love her, but I can't stand any shock that will post to me now at this time of my life. I hope, things will work out for me and for her.

*sigh, is this the end? Or just me being paranoid?

everything was ok for me until when I got home from wing chun at 3pm, saw something that gave one of the biggest shock in my life. I shall not say what it is, but it is about BGR. I know sometime I am being paranoid and shit, but you can't blamed me that I was shocked when I saw that message. I behaved that way because I love her, although I said those words, but you can't blame that because I love her, I reacted that way. I want her happy if she can find it, but something can be sure, I won't be ok for sometime until my heart got used to it. I seriously hoped that message does not implies to her, but to other people that she knows. But it is true, I wished he happy and I will go back to the darkest time of my life. Anyway, my life was in dark for the whole time, nothing has been good for me.

Dawn of twin vengence final episode

This is the final episode of the action short film I've made, I took a bit of rest after the shooting before I edit this movie, that explains why it took so long to come up here. Nevertheless, let's enjoy it. Oh yeah, my acting sucks.

Super angry about this thing.

http://www.ultramanclub.com/2009-4/2009424225342.htm

This is an article about how the media in china talked about ultraman. To me, you can say anything bad to me, but not ultraman. I watched ultraman ever since I was a kid, I don't idolise them, they are hero to me. They taught me a lot of things in life. Sorry for those who can't understand what it is talking. It is saying that in a news report, the reporter said that ultraman is a violent TV show that should be banned in china. It is even banned in Japan. First of all, it is not banned, NOT BANNED! It is all over the world, people idolised them and rumoured that the director of spiderman plans to shoot a new movie about it. So why is it banned? Stupid fuck. Secondly, why is it violent? May be the showa era, a bit of blood. But now got more CG and better choreograhed fights. So it is choreograhed fights, why is it violent? Then can banned every action films, banned every single violent movies, or even banned the existence of martial arts schools in china since it is all about fighting. Fuck them, don't they know these are essential? Imagine you got alien or kaijiu invading the town or earth, what you going to do? Throw shoes at them? Some more it is just a TV show with choreographed fights and CG, a TV show with morale values and TV shws that allow kids to hero-lise them, why not let them watch it? Fuck whatever is humiliating ultraman, fuck whatever is critising them and fuck those who fucks around ultraman.

Something to stress about.

Yeah, I still got to stress something that I had been concerning for months. The school is finally starting, next week to be exact. Seriously, ever since the secondary school to poly, that 6 months holiday, it is killing me to have a long holiday. Thank goodness there is a hong kong trip with the wushu peeps, or else I will rot at home. But because of this trip to HK, I'm closer to 5 other wushu peeps and even formed our own group. Glad that I've made more friends. Other than the school holiday being long, it is also very empty. I tried to keep myself busy, but it is still...empty. I don't know what's lacking, may be that thing? But what ever it is, I'm going to find it and solve it.

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