Finally got it straighten

After 2 weeks on bending the leg, I can finally make my leg straight again and able to withstand a certain level of impact. But still, the jumps in the training is still out of the formula and which means I have to wait for some more time in order for me to regain the ability to jump and kick with my right leg. Damn, how I wanted to go train, it is an unholy of terror that I can't train with whatever reason it is.

Got injured again

During last training, I somehow injured my right leg when I was preparing for next month's competition. I did a normal "er qi jiao" and surprisingly able to jump, kick and land with the same leg, which is the right leg. That was for the first time I able to do it, but it is also the cause of the injury. I heard a cracked sound the moment my right leg landed on the ground and I fell to the ground immediately. I limped to my seat with the help from patrick, soon after the training, I went to see a chinese doctor. The doc said it's a normal sprain, thus should healed pretty quick. This 2 days I had trouble walking, today finally got the ability to walk properly, but still looks like limping. I think I have to just take a rest before my right knee go haywire again. Again like early this year, I found myself still loving her as always. I wonder does she loves/likes me too?

Screwed up competition, but preparing to the next one.

Just now was the IVP competition, it was my first wushu competition. I had high expectation on myself and also others' expectation such as from coach and her, how could I let everyone down. It was the nervous that caught me in the competition, I slipped the cudgel off my hand for a bout 3 times and I fell once in the competition which is not a very good result. How could I make such mistakes? I didn't have those when I was practicing, so how could I did all those mistakes? I really hate that feeling, I felt like an idiot and retard after the whole competition. Crap, fuck, ass. But I can't do anything now, since it is over already. But this is also a good experience for me, this is to get me prepare for a fairer competition in the December and that I will not make any mistakes such as what I did today. I will succeed!

Something has happened again

I always thought that I had forgotten her, I always thought that the feeling for her already being sealed away for good, I thought hope already given up on me. Who would have know that just a single sentence from my FYP team mate can bring everything back into light. I thought I had forgotten her, but I didn't, I still remember her. I thought my love for her had been sealed away for good, but I actually still loves her. That was not the end of everything, recently she did a series of things that actually gave me hope that may be we can be together after all we had gone through, but is this hope a real one or just a illusion? I don't know, I just hope I can find the answer soon.

Injured again

Recently I got injured again, but it is not the new injury, it is old injury. I went for the accupuncture for 3 weeks already and finally able to walk normally, but I still can't jog nor jump. So that means the training is not in the formular. I wanted to train so much, next week competition so more, I have to train a bit more.

closing in

I shouldn't talked about the video "amigo" that I've made recently, as most of the people already watched it. Plus, not many people visit my blog, those who had, already watched the video. Anyway, the video was a success, I got a lot of good response from the viewers, the rating was high and the view reached 270+ within a few days since the upload, which isn't possible for my previous few video. I guess the story is nice and the fight scene are much better now. Even wendi praised the fight scenes, I was delighted and motivated to make a better one.

Anyway, I haven't talked about the title. Yes, the day of the competition and the performance is coming close. This is the first time for me to go on stage and perform and to go in front of the judges to compete with other people. May be the feeling of competition will be similar to the one that I had when I'm having my grading, but who knows? The performance, what I hope is the success.

Now I'm brain storming a new story for the new short film. When will it be filmed, I had no idea, but I hope sometime in this semester. This is a new break through, because I need to clone a person and make the 2 fight using after effect, but I'm not sure whether it can be done or not. If it is, it will be another break through of my short film.

*sigh

I lost the direction of life once more, the same thing was happening again. What I feel now is my meal of life is a plate of shit.