Monday, April 25, 2011
After so many turns and merry go round....
After so many merry go rounds, I realised that it is you who I truly love and no one can ever replace that.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Idiotic decision
After watching the new "A chinese ghost story"(I will put on a review about this movie soon), I gave a lot of thinking about my relationship.
Ever since the meeting with salmon, I never thought that I will have such a strong feeling of love towards her. So strong that I can't shift that love to other girls that came into my life, before or after her.
I know salmon treated me as a brother and I treat her like a sister, like how we did that for the past. I realized that the feeling I had for her can never be a brother-sister love kind of love. I had been thinking about it, almost a year, whether I can shift that love to other girls or not. I realized it's not possible. I also thought about whether I should just leave her and put myself into other relationship, I also realized that I can't do that. All because the feeling is just way too strong for me to do so.
After watching the new "A chinese ghost story", one of the character inside actually spent almost the entire life protecting his lover who lost the memories about the guy. The feeling of love portrayed in that movie is very strong. So am I going to do that same thing too? Spending my whole life waiting for that slim chance of me being together with her, or to protect her from whatever harm that's coming into her way? To some people, I might have been overly matured, but in relationship, I am not. In fact, I could have said that I am very idiotic about it, I always make stupid decision and illogical decision. But since when love is smart and logical? I'm not sure how to put it, but I just hope that this love is a pure one. I'm making a very great amount of effort to make it a pure love between me and her, but most of the time, I think it's just me loving her. I don't know if she really think about the both of us...I think I will make that stupid decision, she's the only one for me and I'm making it that way. Even if we can't be together, I'm keeping her in my heart and protecting her from whatever.
Ever since the meeting with salmon, I never thought that I will have such a strong feeling of love towards her. So strong that I can't shift that love to other girls that came into my life, before or after her.
I know salmon treated me as a brother and I treat her like a sister, like how we did that for the past. I realized that the feeling I had for her can never be a brother-sister love kind of love. I had been thinking about it, almost a year, whether I can shift that love to other girls or not. I realized it's not possible. I also thought about whether I should just leave her and put myself into other relationship, I also realized that I can't do that. All because the feeling is just way too strong for me to do so.
After watching the new "A chinese ghost story", one of the character inside actually spent almost the entire life protecting his lover who lost the memories about the guy. The feeling of love portrayed in that movie is very strong. So am I going to do that same thing too? Spending my whole life waiting for that slim chance of me being together with her, or to protect her from whatever harm that's coming into her way? To some people, I might have been overly matured, but in relationship, I am not. In fact, I could have said that I am very idiotic about it, I always make stupid decision and illogical decision. But since when love is smart and logical? I'm not sure how to put it, but I just hope that this love is a pure one. I'm making a very great amount of effort to make it a pure love between me and her, but most of the time, I think it's just me loving her. I don't know if she really think about the both of us...I think I will make that stupid decision, she's the only one for me and I'm making it that way. Even if we can't be together, I'm keeping her in my heart and protecting her from whatever.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
perhaps....或许....
perhaps I still love you, waiting for you and willing to accept you even now....I don't know, am I an idiot to do so? May be I am willing to be an idiot for you only...?
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