Finally got it straighten

After 2 weeks on bending the leg, I can finally make my leg straight again and able to withstand a certain level of impact. But still, the jumps in the training is still out of the formula and which means I have to wait for some more time in order for me to regain the ability to jump and kick with my right leg. Damn, how I wanted to go train, it is an unholy of terror that I can't train with whatever reason it is.

Got injured again

During last training, I somehow injured my right leg when I was preparing for next month's competition. I did a normal "er qi jiao" and surprisingly able to jump, kick and land with the same leg, which is the right leg. That was for the first time I able to do it, but it is also the cause of the injury. I heard a cracked sound the moment my right leg landed on the ground and I fell to the ground immediately. I limped to my seat with the help from patrick, soon after the training, I went to see a chinese doctor. The doc said it's a normal sprain, thus should healed pretty quick. This 2 days I had trouble walking, today finally got the ability to walk properly, but still looks like limping. I think I have to just take a rest before my right knee go haywire again. Again like early this year, I found myself still loving her as always. I wonder does she loves/likes me too?

Screwed up competition, but preparing to the next one.

Just now was the IVP competition, it was my first wushu competition. I had high expectation on myself and also others' expectation such as from coach and her, how could I let everyone down. It was the nervous that caught me in the competition, I slipped the cudgel off my hand for a bout 3 times and I fell once in the competition which is not a very good result. How could I make such mistakes? I didn't have those when I was practicing, so how could I did all those mistakes? I really hate that feeling, I felt like an idiot and retard after the whole competition. Crap, fuck, ass. But I can't do anything now, since it is over already. But this is also a good experience for me, this is to get me prepare for a fairer competition in the December and that I will not make any mistakes such as what I did today. I will succeed!

Something has happened again

I always thought that I had forgotten her, I always thought that the feeling for her already being sealed away for good, I thought hope already given up on me. Who would have know that just a single sentence from my FYP team mate can bring everything back into light. I thought I had forgotten her, but I didn't, I still remember her. I thought my love for her had been sealed away for good, but I actually still loves her. That was not the end of everything, recently she did a series of things that actually gave me hope that may be we can be together after all we had gone through, but is this hope a real one or just a illusion? I don't know, I just hope I can find the answer soon.