New year

Today marks the first day of 2010 and the first hour of 2010. For my first post of 2010, I will put down my new year resolution, this year, it would be a shorter one.

new year resolution 2010:
1) Be with you and love you forever.
2) Train even harder in martial arts and hopefully will become stronger than who I am now.(in terms of practical fights)
3)Get into NTU.
4) Stay healthy
5) Loving you.

love

Love is a topic that no man can really find the true answer to it, but human never stop to look for what is true love. Different people got different thinking about love and also different way to approach it. For me, love is something so complex and simple that it's not easy to understand. For 20 years of my life, I had been searching what is love and stuff(this doesn't happens until 6 years ago when I had my first crush). Until I fall in love with her, then I realised that those that I had crush before were nothing but illusion. Those crushes, I only say I like them, but nothing more than that. For her, I say that I love her. Love is really profound, all I want is to see her smile everyday, I don't want to see her sad or down. I want her to be happy. During that time, that is what I thought. Then something happened, I was very sad, but one thing for sure, I want her to be happy no matter what.

Love is when you want that person to be happy, even though you are not the one doing it.

Ever since that incident, I put myself deeper into martial arts. I thought martial arts can make me feel better, make me forget you, make me forget that I once loved you. I trained hard, day and night, getting stronger and stronger everyday, trying hard to forget you. After sometime of doing so, I thought I had forgotten the feeling, I thought that I had loved you before. I was wrong, I haven't forget you, I haven't get over you, I still love you. How ironic, I tried so hard to forget you, tried so hard to not love you. But all it takes is just a simple word from my friend and it unlocked the seal that I put on the love for you. I never once loved someone so deeply before. Every girl that comes into my life, I just straight away compare them with you and found that you are still the better one for me. My good friends always asked me to think through, "you like her this much?". I can say straight away without thinking: "I don't like her, I love her". That is my feeling for you, love.

Love, is when even though that person might hurt you, you still care for them without reason.

I don't know whether you can see this or not, but hundred percent for sure, I love you. I want you to be happy. I want to see you smile. You got a choice to love me or don't love me, I got the choice to love you or to love you even deeper. Can we love each other as a couple?

Lacking of sleep

Crap, so many things come at one go, I hardly get any sleep. Especially the FYP is so tightly in terms of the time we had, I can't get a day off without working on it. With all the stress from FYP, I also had problem with my leg. It's chip fracture, which means a part of my bone was chip off. It's either I remove that chip or I just leave it alone, depends on what the doctor will decide. Also, I just went for my NS checkup. Take up a lot of time, but finally get it done. But yet I need to go back there 3 months later for another appointment because of my leg injury. How crappy is it? What I need now, is to get a smile from you, a love from you, that would make my stressing day to lighten. Can I have that?

Could this finally come true?

May be my close friends knew it already, but I'm going to say it over here. Things happened, life goes up and down. I'm not sure whether me and her are now going up the slope or not, but apparently, it is...at least I think it is. I sure hope things will work out, she is the only one that stands in my heart for this long even though so many things happened. I...only love her.

Finally got it straighten

After 2 weeks on bending the leg, I can finally make my leg straight again and able to withstand a certain level of impact. But still, the jumps in the training is still out of the formula and which means I have to wait for some more time in order for me to regain the ability to jump and kick with my right leg. Damn, how I wanted to go train, it is an unholy of terror that I can't train with whatever reason it is.

Got injured again

During last training, I somehow injured my right leg when I was preparing for next month's competition. I did a normal "er qi jiao" and surprisingly able to jump, kick and land with the same leg, which is the right leg. That was for the first time I able to do it, but it is also the cause of the injury. I heard a cracked sound the moment my right leg landed on the ground and I fell to the ground immediately. I limped to my seat with the help from patrick, soon after the training, I went to see a chinese doctor. The doc said it's a normal sprain, thus should healed pretty quick. This 2 days I had trouble walking, today finally got the ability to walk properly, but still looks like limping. I think I have to just take a rest before my right knee go haywire again. Again like early this year, I found myself still loving her as always. I wonder does she loves/likes me too?

Screwed up competition, but preparing to the next one.

Just now was the IVP competition, it was my first wushu competition. I had high expectation on myself and also others' expectation such as from coach and her, how could I let everyone down. It was the nervous that caught me in the competition, I slipped the cudgel off my hand for a bout 3 times and I fell once in the competition which is not a very good result. How could I make such mistakes? I didn't have those when I was practicing, so how could I did all those mistakes? I really hate that feeling, I felt like an idiot and retard after the whole competition. Crap, fuck, ass. But I can't do anything now, since it is over already. But this is also a good experience for me, this is to get me prepare for a fairer competition in the December and that I will not make any mistakes such as what I did today. I will succeed!

Something has happened again

I always thought that I had forgotten her, I always thought that the feeling for her already being sealed away for good, I thought hope already given up on me. Who would have know that just a single sentence from my FYP team mate can bring everything back into light. I thought I had forgotten her, but I didn't, I still remember her. I thought my love for her had been sealed away for good, but I actually still loves her. That was not the end of everything, recently she did a series of things that actually gave me hope that may be we can be together after all we had gone through, but is this hope a real one or just a illusion? I don't know, I just hope I can find the answer soon.

Injured again

Recently I got injured again, but it is not the new injury, it is old injury. I went for the accupuncture for 3 weeks already and finally able to walk normally, but I still can't jog nor jump. So that means the training is not in the formular. I wanted to train so much, next week competition so more, I have to train a bit more.

closing in

I shouldn't talked about the video "amigo" that I've made recently, as most of the people already watched it. Plus, not many people visit my blog, those who had, already watched the video. Anyway, the video was a success, I got a lot of good response from the viewers, the rating was high and the view reached 270+ within a few days since the upload, which isn't possible for my previous few video. I guess the story is nice and the fight scene are much better now. Even wendi praised the fight scenes, I was delighted and motivated to make a better one.

Anyway, I haven't talked about the title. Yes, the day of the competition and the performance is coming close. This is the first time for me to go on stage and perform and to go in front of the judges to compete with other people. May be the feeling of competition will be similar to the one that I had when I'm having my grading, but who knows? The performance, what I hope is the success.

Now I'm brain storming a new story for the new short film. When will it be filmed, I had no idea, but I hope sometime in this semester. This is a new break through, because I need to clone a person and make the 2 fight using after effect, but I'm not sure whether it can be done or not. If it is, it will be another break through of my short film.

*sigh

I lost the direction of life once more, the same thing was happening again. What I feel now is my meal of life is a plate of shit.

wushu performances

Last saturday, I went out to meet eileen, bing long, ah keong and meng yeow for the 8th national wushu display. I had been waiting for that day to come, to see with my very eye, the skills of the wudang and the shao lin fighters in action. We are seated at the first few rows, which means we got a very clear view of the performance. There are students from local schools, china coaches teaching in singapore, china nation team, our nation team, er mei, wudang and shao lin. You can say that all the good stuff are gathering at the stadium.

I shorten a bit, our national teams was under my expectation, I thought they are a lot better than what I think. China coaches and national are as usual, very good. Those moves are totally crazy and they can jump real high. Especially the guy wit hthe broad sword, it's so damn fast. That is the target of mine.

Then there is er mei, a bit out of my expectation, not as grand as I thought, but still good. The shao lin is just way too cool, they showed a lot of fists and moves, even the golden mask. That was totally out of a normal people's mind, real fantastic. Here comes the wudang, they got real heat packed in them. They can be fast and smooth at the same time in a fight. Also they got this formation, oh, it's 2 formations. From what I can see, the formation can be used in a real fight. All the fighters are very synchronised and know what to do in the formation.

The following day, I go out with bing long and keong for another wudang performance in istana park, which is the same thing as the previous day, yet still nice to watch it.

I got a numbers of video, I will upload it and then let you all take a look at it

After all the performances, I got motivated to train harder to reach taht kind of standard. Be it the modern wushu or the traditional, I want to excel in that.

Guilty

Just now was asked to go find my tkd coach, because today I was not there for the training, I didn't take up the class. At the same time, I kept pestering coach to let me go for the advance class training on friday. So coach called me down and had a talk with me, about what I want. They said that I didn't attend the training as usual as compared when I was a coloured belt, wondered will I also be like the past few black belts that suddenly disappear without trace. After hearing what they said, I got really guilty of what I did. It's true, I did have a thinking that I can slack a bit after I got my black belt. But in actual fact, I have to comit more to the class that I will be handling. From now on, I will focus on the classes more than ever and will hold on to it.

Some negative feeling

There are times where I feel like giving up a lot of things. Love, money, status, everything. Call it aftermath or whatever, ever since the incident with josphine, I had a lot lesser confident in myself. I always feel that I can't do things right and heaven are telling me the same thing, I cannot do things right. Let's make an example of today's incident. 2 of my actors cannot make it to the shooting, one of them left to malaysia without tell me so, that really pissed me off. There are more to come, I couldn't find the battery for the camera, it's either I left it in the IG room or I lost it, hindering my process of the shooting. This doesn't ends here, I asked 3 person to help me out beind the camera, but all 3 of them couldn't come. So because of the battery problem, I have to wait till next week before I can get to shoot the video. The problem with the shooting is that dialogue scene don't take too long, but it is the action scene that will take the longest time of the shooting.

That is just the video shooting, there is more. After so many days of training, I've yet to be able to do a kip up, which is you jump back to your feet when you are lying flat on the ground with your back. I got real pissed off, why couldn't I do it. I got the feeling that I am on the air and it's just to raise my upper body and I can complete the action, but I just fall back on the ground. That's real bullshit.

When talking about love, that is where I'm afraid of. I'm afraid another reason like "I just want to be friend" or "I treat you like a brother to me". I cannot take another impact like that, I really cannot take it anymore. Sometime I'm still wonder is there really such thing as love for me(I'm referring to BGR)? I really don't know, may be the heaven are telling me "ok, you shouldn't go into BGR because we don't want you to." If that is the case, please let me born an idiot or something that will make me don't have any feeling. I don't want to go through the same hurtful words again and again, I cannot take it anymore and any longer. I rather go to shaolin and train there, never come back to singapore anymore.

*sigh, hope everything will turns out ok.

I found it in my email

Something that was in my email inbox for sometime, think that it is ok for me to share with the people reading.

第一句

　　如果我们之间有1000步的距离
　　
　　你只要跨出第1步
　　
　　我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　
　　第二句
　　
　　通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
　　
　　才是真正爱你的人
　　
　　第三句
　　
　　付出真心　才会得到真心
　　
　　却也可能伤得彻底
　　
　　保持距离　就能保护自己
　　
　　却也注定永远寂寞
　　
　　第四句
　　
　　有时候　不是对方不在乎你
　　
　　而是你把对方看得太重
　　
　　第五句
　　
　　朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人
　　
　　第六句
　　
　　就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie
　　
　　第七句
　　
　　真正的好朋友
　　
　　并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
　　
　　而是在一起　就算不说话
　　
　　也不会感到尴尬
　　
　　第八句
　　
　　没有一百分的另一半
　　
　　只有五十分的两个人
　　
　　第九句
　　
　　为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
　　
　　为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
　　
　　为你的难过而难过的
　　
　　就是那些　该放进心里的人
　　
　　第十句
　　
　　冷漠　有时候并不是无情
　　
　　只是一种避免被伤害的工具


大家也许你就是其中一个,暗着心里想想看吧.什么是你该做的,什么是你该接受的.

Official

Although a bit slow in telling you guys this, I'm officially a black belt in tkd now, very happy. wow!!!

Evaluation on love

Ever since the incident with her, I got a lot more insights on love and life. In the past, I used to think that love is the purpose of life and believed it. Me and her were used to be like a couple, but now is a brother and sister. After that incident, I think that I should devote myself in martial arts and work. Build up port folio and skills on film making, increase my martial arts skills, now that is the sole purpose of my life. I hope I can find the love of my life, but who knows when would that be, I hoped that time will come, but I doubt that I will have a gf even in my 30s. For now, what I can do now is wait.

Taekwondo grading, final one to black belt.

Yesterday was my final grading, once I passed that grading, I will get my black belt. Wow, looking back at the time, it has been 2 and a half years since I first entered my taekwondo clun, time sure flies. So when I go there and wait for my row to start the grading, I feel like I am going to take O level again. I was so nervous about the grading, there are 3 graders sitting in front of you and see you doing your pattern(套路 in wushu and kata in karate) and 3 rounds of sparring. The sparring I'm not afraid, in fact, I looked forward to it. It is the pattern that I am nervous, scared I will do good in it. Thank goodness it was pretty ok. Then here comes the sparring, everyone will spar with 3 different person. I didn't spar for don't know how long already, but I sure don't get nervous over this matter.

My first opponent is a guy in his 30s, pretty built. I was wondering whether I can take him on or not earlier in the day. But here he did something that I wasn't expecting it. You know the bruce lee shout "wata!!!"? That's what he shout when the examiner shout junbi(ready in korean, sounds pretty similar to Japanese). I was like "huh?", but soon I also get into my en garde position. To my surprise, his kicks was like slow motion to me. To other people in the eye, it might be pretty fast, but I see it as slow motion. He fight 100%(I guess, based on his aggressiveness), but the strength isn't there and definitely can't cath with my speed. I basically dodged and blocked all his kicks, every single one. I land a couple of kicks on him, but the most devastating will be the reverse kick in the head. Head! God, we are not supposed to aim at the head level, let alone I hit him in the head. Thank goodness I didn't use too much strength in the kick, just plain skill, or else it will be a serious case. One minute passed, we changed opponent, this time is was a smaller built guy. His kick are pretty swift, but was still a slow motion to me. I blocked and dodged all his kicks again, then I used a jumping side kick, got him on the ground. I at first want to link up to a jumping back thrust, but he was already lying on the ground, too bad. 1 min over, change opponent again, this time is a tall guy. I already wasted too many energy on the previous 2 fights, I focus more on the countering this time. Which means, I block one time, hit at the same time. I got this guy in the head again, damn. I do a double front kick using the same leg, one at the lower part of the waist and the other one in the head. I was like shit, another time? Good thing it is not hard, or else sure got problem. Finally the ring rang and that is the end of my sparring and yesterday's grading. Something happened at this moment, very shocking and surprising. Everyone looked at me and start clapping. I mean the entire stadium with the people taking the grading as well. I was happy in the heart, but too tired to express on my face or movement.

There are few things in common during the sparring.

1) I dodged the kicks by jumping:
A lot of the times, I dodge the kicks by jumping/hopping away from the opponent and cause them to miss the target, which is me. Also one thing, I think I jumped a lot higher and further, may be the training in wushu paid off. Thanks coach.

2) I blocked the kicks if I can't dodge it:
I blocked all the kicks, only if I can't dodge it or I need to do a counter. All the blocks worked and all the kicks are blocked down.

3) All the kicks are like slow motion to me:
It's either me being too observant and fast or they are just really slow. I can read the muscle movement of the kicks. I got once I was doing a 360 jumping front kick, I saw the leg of the opponent start to move, I was thinking "damn, his leg is going to come up, am I quick enough to dodge it?" All these happened in the split second when I was in the air. If it is me being too fast, that still is the result of the wushu training, thanks coach.

4) I was real calm when I fight:
For real, I was so calm and confident that I walked towards the opponent without my guarding position. Because I can blocked the moment before the leg hit me. How I walk? Those who watched kamen rider, especially kabuto will know how stylish and calm kabuto fight. He just simply walked to the opponent and then attack and that is what I did.

I felt real good with the clap, make me think that I fought real well. In short, the entire sparring, I was a total ownage machine. No one touched me, in the sense that kicked me. I felt so good after sparring, I just love it. Now I just have to wait for the result of the grading.

Tired

Today, I sort of like having a mood swing. I got angry on everything for no reason. For the entire day, I was like real pissed off. Then during the 6P, surprisingly, I was so sleepy and tired that I fell asleep while faci standing beside me. It is real surprising, because I was always the most active person in the Digital video and audio module, this week I got so tired. It is because of the FYP, I feel like a few days never sleep and was totally shag. Despite all the hard work and effort, faci said that he didn't see the effort in us. I was like "did you see my fucking eye bag and dark eye ring? Did you see that I dropped a lot of hair ever since the starting of the FYP?" Add on to that, one of my team mates just keep disappearing, add my workload to myself, I was so tired of all these. Hopefully the next FYP will be the best of my work.

Training camp

It had been about 2 or 3 weeks after the training camp then now I start to update, been busy with the bloody FYP, only if it is not stop motion animation. Ok, back to the camp thing. First thing, 4 stupid things I've done at the first day of the training camp. I forgot to bring my charger for PSP, run back home from CWP and get it. When I was half way to school, I remembered I forgot to bring the camera. When I go to take bath, I realised I brought a hair conditioner instead of a shampoo. Lastly, when I thought I forgot to bring a slipper, I realised it has been in my bag all the while until the end of the first day. That was real bad. First day of the training camp, first thing we do is the stretching. President(identity protection) want us to increase our flexibility, thus a lot of stretching. A lot of the year 1 are unable to reached to a higher level at first. Then the year one start looking for their "master" to learn either their preferable weapon routine or the fist routine. Until the end of the night, we had been training. Too bad that I don't have a student, that's sad.

2nd day, the first morning, we focus again, more on the flexibility and the jumping capability. When we reached 2pm, we started teh san da training, a chinese kick boxing. I did train under taekwondo for sparring and kicking, so facing the target and the opponent isn't difficult. The difficult is the fist, it has been so long since I used my fist to hit something, a bit not use to it. At the end of the 2 to 3 hours of san da training, my hand is literally shivering, that's real shiok, I love training. Then we got a wrestling game with the president. At first I do not know why the president can win so many people, after many matches and observation, I realised he was holding the inner portion of the body, it's real difficult to explain in words, go refer to wing chun for answer. And that's it, I realised the correct way of winning him, I told the technique(based on the knowledge of wing chun, I trained in wing chun) to rong bing, he uses the technique, yeah, he did gain a bit of upper hand. But still, he is unable to pull the president down, but he also avoided being thrown, which is a good thing. That proved that my technique is correct and workable. Then we had the dinner and a little of stretching and then we went to sleep.

3rd day, we woke up at 6 and went for a jogging and stretching again and again before we go for breakfast. After the breakfast, everyone was so tired that they are unable to do any more work out. Literally, everyone of the trainees. President told us that we can sleep till 10 and then pack up and go home. After all these training, finally it's over. I love all these training, it benefits me a lot. After dismiss, we went to help out in wan ling's FYP sensory test. After the test, we waited at the next door, chatted and watched video while waiting for wan ling to finish everything. When wan ling finished, it is about 7pm already. We went for dinner and then go home.

Shopping with the stars

We had been talking that we need to go out and shop for some clothing, like a lot of the stars don't have much things to wear. So one day, we decide to go out and shop at far east after the training on the last friday. We went to my parent's stall and had our lunch/dinner first, then we head to far east via the bus no14. When we got there, we start to walk around to see what we can buy. Overall, wan ling bought the most, eileen bought a dress and one more thing which I forgot what it is, I bought a black long sleeve shirt. After that, it is too late to shop as a lot of the other shop we closing, so we went to subway and had some chat before heading home. I will make a short music video based on the 6 stars pictures soon, just wait for it arh. Next post, I will talk about the wushu training camp.

Feeling a lot better.

It has been 2 weeks after the incident. I can't say I am hundred percent ok, but I am a lot better. I've seen through somethings during this period, I know that love can be decieving, even though the girl show that she cares for you, but it might be a different overall. Now, alvin try to ask me to get into another relationship, he said that she is not good enough for me, ask me to go woo another girl. It's not that I don't want, it's just that I still cannot forget about her. Sometime when I was alone, I will start to think about her. Although the pain is not there anymore, sometime I feel that I missed her. I already know that I cannot be with her, I can only be with her as a brother, nothing more. I need a bit more time for me to get into another relationship.

能这么容易忘记一个人吗？ Is it very difficult to forget someone?

今天到跆拳道训练， 心想会不会遇到她？ 如果遇到， 一定要装冷静， 不能表现出伤感。 誰知她没来。 我还想说太好了，至少不会尴尬。 当我看着训练场， 就想起我们在那一起欢笑， 玩乐，多好。现在呢？彼此尴尬。 想到这时， 我就非常难过， 眼泪就快流出， 我还是得把眼泪往肚里吞。世上真有不会被破坏的约定吗？世上有天长地久的爱吗？我不知道，但是，我知道我无法忘记她，因为我爱她，却无法再爱她。因为她已找到她爱他而他也爱她的男人。我只能像个大哥一样，在旁守护她，却无法在一起的男人。咳，情为何物？

Today I went to the taekwondo training as usual, I was wondering will I meet her at the training later. If I did, I got to stay cool and not showing my hurted emotion. Who knows that she didn't turn up for the training. I was thinking at least we won't be in an awkward situation if she came. When I got to the training ground, I remembered that the time we spent together over there. We laughed, joked, chatted, played and walked home together at the same spot. At that time, we are not in such a situation. When I thought of that, my tears almost flows out, but I cannot cry, not when training with the coaches and the kids.

I wonder is there unbreakable promise? Is there eternal love? I don't know, but I know that I couldn't forget her. Because I loved her, yet cannot love her any more, because she found her fated lover. What I can do is to be a big brother, protect his sister. But I couldn't be with her any more.....Someone please tell me what is love?

How I wished to do that....

This song explains this post and what I feel better than any words now.

Kao Jin 靠近 - Sam Li Sheng Jie

Still cannot forget about her...

This is the 3rd day ever since she said that she wants me to forget about her, I'm still in shocked from then. I cannot forget her face, her smile, everything about her. Although we didn't go out much, but I treasure every moment I spent with her. I still can't accept the fact she had to be gone from my life, I still unable to accept. My heart still hurts when I go through the messages I and her exchanged, the friend finding website(facebook etc) that we had, worst is when I saw her picture. I cannot helped but felt hurt deep down in my heart. I felt all these because I love her, I didn't tell her that. I regret didn't do a lot of things, I didn't share her burden, I wasn't there when she was sicked, I didn't tell her that I loved her. Why am I such a pathetic guy? Why has it going to end like this? This is the worst I've experienced. Rejection is ok, but getting a bf without telling me? I will feel better if she were to tell me when she got one. It really hurts when I found that she got a bf....

I cannot described the pain in my heart. All I want is to share our lives with each other. I'm not a guy good with words, but all I can do is to be with her when things got worst....All has been returned to nothingness, I cannot do anything about it anymore. No more promise, no more beside her, no more....

Supernova

Literally, even my songlist on this blog got the song called "supernova". Shits was thrown in my face, hell broke loose in my world, my world plunged into darkness once again. I found out that she got a bf. Yes, I told her that she can get a bf within the time, but please tell me if you got one. That is what hurts most, I got suspicious on it, found out about it, then she tells me. I at first cannot take it, in fact, I cannot take that fact. Now that the fact came and slap onto my face and said: "Here you go, take it!" I don't know what should I do now? I love her but I also can't love her, I care for her but I can't care for her. I think I will go crazy. This is also one reason why I got into martial arts, I'm ready to devote my life to martial arts, not other things already...I really don't know already....

Frastrating

Recently, I am very frastrated. Things don't work for shit, my mind don't think for good, my life don't lighten up anytime. I hope things don't result into what I am thinking about now. I hope that it is just me being paranoid. I really love her, but I can't stand any shock that will post to me now at this time of my life. I hope, things will work out for me and for her.

*sigh, is this the end? Or just me being paranoid?

everything was ok for me until when I got home from wing chun at 3pm, saw something that gave one of the biggest shock in my life. I shall not say what it is, but it is about BGR. I know sometime I am being paranoid and shit, but you can't blamed me that I was shocked when I saw that message. I behaved that way because I love her, although I said those words, but you can't blame that because I love her, I reacted that way. I want her happy if she can find it, but something can be sure, I won't be ok for sometime until my heart got used to it. I seriously hoped that message does not implies to her, but to other people that she knows. But it is true, I wished he happy and I will go back to the darkest time of my life. Anyway, my life was in dark for the whole time, nothing has been good for me.

Dawn of twin vengence final episode

This is the final episode of the action short film I've made, I took a bit of rest after the shooting before I edit this movie, that explains why it took so long to come up here. Nevertheless, let's enjoy it. Oh yeah, my acting sucks.

Super angry about this thing.

http://www.ultramanclub.com/2009-4/2009424225342.htm

This is an article about how the media in china talked about ultraman. To me, you can say anything bad to me, but not ultraman. I watched ultraman ever since I was a kid, I don't idolise them, they are hero to me. They taught me a lot of things in life. Sorry for those who can't understand what it is talking. It is saying that in a news report, the reporter said that ultraman is a violent TV show that should be banned in china. It is even banned in Japan. First of all, it is not banned, NOT BANNED! It is all over the world, people idolised them and rumoured that the director of spiderman plans to shoot a new movie about it. So why is it banned? Stupid fuck. Secondly, why is it violent? May be the showa era, a bit of blood. But now got more CG and better choreograhed fights. So it is choreograhed fights, why is it violent? Then can banned every action films, banned every single violent movies, or even banned the existence of martial arts schools in china since it is all about fighting. Fuck them, don't they know these are essential? Imagine you got alien or kaijiu invading the town or earth, what you going to do? Throw shoes at them? Some more it is just a TV show with choreographed fights and CG, a TV show with morale values and TV shws that allow kids to hero-lise them, why not let them watch it? Fuck whatever is humiliating ultraman, fuck whatever is critising them and fuck those who fucks around ultraman.

Something to stress about.

Yeah, I still got to stress something that I had been concerning for months. The school is finally starting, next week to be exact. Seriously, ever since the secondary school to poly, that 6 months holiday, it is killing me to have a long holiday. Thank goodness there is a hong kong trip with the wushu peeps, or else I will rot at home. But because of this trip to HK, I'm closer to 5 other wushu peeps and even formed our own group. Glad that I've made more friends. Other than the school holiday being long, it is also very empty. I tried to keep myself busy, but it is still...empty. I don't know what's lacking, may be that thing? But what ever it is, I'm going to find it and solve it.

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super stunt

Last friday, during the training, coach said: "Let's do some strength training". Whoa, that is the main course of the training. We did frog jumps and a lot of other strength training for the entire 2 hours. At the end of the day, everyone got their leg trembling. Most of the people even got trouble walking, up and down the stairs will be hell for us. I got trouble even trying to sit down and stand up, the thigh muscle was so pain. Thanks for the tiger palm paste, my leg got better and able to go for training today, or else even got trouble to run and jump.

Training resume

The training of wushu finally resume back to normal. Seriously, I really was sick of doing nothing for the entire week last week. Talking about training, I increase the density of the training for now until the end of the nafa test. I got confident in most of the stuff except pull up. Shit, what should I do? Recently, I think I was thinking of someone almost everyday, everytime, everywhere. I don't know wha should I do, but I made a promise to her. So all I can do now is wait, hopefully she feels the same thing as I am...

Back from hong kong

Seriously, this is the first time I got to somewhere other than hong kong. It was very exciting; it is the first time that I got on to the plane. It did shake a bit, but was within my expectation. The food up there was better than I expected guess it is because of it is SIA that we took. Hong kong got a lot of stuff that was very similar to Singapore and Malaysia such as the building and the road, all are quite similar. When we got to the hotel, I was very shocked. There are a lot wushu participants over there, not all of them are Chinese, some of them come from Japan and even Iran and Italy. After checking in, we got out and eat the dinner. I tell you, the food over there, even though they are the same, but it taste a lot better than the one in Singapore. I ate the curry rice, the curry fragrant and tasty, the spicy level are just at the correct level. In Singapore, a lot of the place got the curry that was so spicy that you can’t finish everything. One thing I don’t really like is the temperature. It is too damn cold over here(hong kong). It was like 10+ degree. The wind is chilling cold, no, freezing cold. When the wind hits your face, you feel the coldness. During the trip to here, it was that harsh. Why? 1) I sms-ed a very important person and talk quite some time, making me feel quite comfortable when coming here. 2) I was expecting everything over here, not everything surprise me except the number of participants. On the night, finally got to sleep, but something was not very right, a room-mate(i shall not mention the name, just say S) snored. It was so loud that the entire room only got his snoring sound. I turn around the bed and finally got to sleep at 3+am.

7+am, I was woke up by S and ask all the other room-mates to go to the 7th floor for breakfast. The hotel was a 6 star hotel, thus the 7th floor alone was restaruant. The queue was long like hell ans people started to cut queue. I finally got the food but the food was not up to the standard I expected to be. Then finally got to the competition ground with all the other members. There are a lot of people and the people from other country then china will compete in court 5. All the court were at the same stadium, so we can see the different standard of the wushu team from all over the world. There are from Iran and even south africa, quite surprising even there has chinese martial art school. The standard of the russians was the highest in my sense among the "non-china" group of contestants. The china's standard was over the top, even a kid can swing the cudgel faster than any one of us, too strong. After the competition for the first day, we went out and eat the lunch, it was basically not bad, but the fried rice that I ate was too many, I struggled to finished it. After that, me, wan ling, eileen, julie, bing long, wen-di and ren mao went out to have a stroll around the tsuen wan and shop a bit too. Some of the stuff were expensive but it was very good. The taste for the food, the design for fashion stuff. We bought cup noodles and went to wan ling's room for dinner. Yeah, we had cup noodles for the dinner. Finally went back to my room and prepare to sleep. Oh no, S started to snore again. It spells "no sleep" for me.

The third day, also the 2nd day of the competition. This time, eileen gave me a morning call and then me and the other room-mates went out to eat breakfast. The situation was the same as the first day, people rushing for food and everything. The competition was very competitive, all the competitors got very high standard. KJ, patrick and others are having broadsword and cudgel on that day. After that, we went out and to eat the lunch again. The curry paste taste like peanut sauce, not very nice. Then, we went back to the hotel to get prepare to go to 大屿山 to pray to the big buddha, ah keong also was to pray for his next day tai chi competiton. We took the train to tong chiung and then took the cable car to the top of the mountain. It was very foggy, we barely see anything on the way up and at one point, we practically can see nothing but the cable 1m in front of us and the rest is just fog. Finally we reached the top and start to venture to different shops and finally got to the staircase which will lead us to the big buddha. Wan ling and eileen went up first. When me, ah keong, ren mao, bing long and julie reached to the top, we can see only the lower body of the buddha, what a piece of shit. We go to a shop to buy something for gifts. Finally got to the cable car station to catch the almost last ride of the cable car. Ren mao lost the ticket and we was held there for about 20 mins. Finally got down and had the dinner at KFC. Even the KFC was so different from singapore, just cannot be described.

The 4th day, me and S went out first to catch the competition of ah keong's tai chi. In the 24th style, he had to compete with 7 people of the same age and him, 42th style had to compete with 4 other competitor. He still come out 2nd for both, that was awesome. Patick have monkey fist at the same day too, it seems pretty cool. After that, wan ling also got broadsword and her "劈手". That was a mistook routine as it was actually to be dagger, but something happened to the registration and thus she had to make do for that. Thank goodness she made it out alright. Then we go back to hotel for a while and we went out for dinner. The dinner was ok, but it was a bit weird that the waitress want to speak english. Finally got back to the hotel, went to wan ling's room and the others to chat and play a little. Got back to the hotel and rest for the next day, shopping time.

5th day, me, wan ling, eileen, juile, bing long and ren mao went to the woman's street for shopping. There are tons of stuff over there. Those are really nice designs and good price. To cut short, I bought a t-shirt, jeans, vest, a pair of shoe and a new wallet. After all the shopping, we went to central and find julie's friend to bring us to dinner and wood chips cake. THat wood chip cakes are some of the best ice-cream cakes I ever eaten. It was fantastic. Then we went back to the hotel and rest.

The last day of the trip, we went to yau ma tei for another shopping. But ultimately, we are going to the peak to take a look at the night view from the top of the mountain. But shit, it was very foggy and we see nothing. Then we got back to hotel and finally rest. The rest, picture will tell the story.