Sigh

Today is another day that I can't chat with you, that really made me pissed off at myself. Why am I so useless? I love you, but I never once said it to you. Sometimes when I want to tell you, things happen. It has been one year, throughout this one year, I realised that I still love you even though you sort of cheated me before. Even my friends said that I'm stupid to still loving you after all these and after one year. But what to do? You are my only love, no other people.

What should I do?

I got this mixed feeling, good and bad feeling. Couple of days ago, I dreamed about her, I remembered that dream very clearly. She finally said "yes", me and her finally got together as a couple. Not only that, I remembered that she kept repeating that she loves me, about 3 times. After that, I woke up. The moment I woke up, I was already in deep thinking mode. I scared it might be a premonition about bad stuff, but I also heard that dreams is a premonition about what's going to happen. I don't know, I really don't know. One thing's for sure, I really loves her, I really do. I never once love a girl so deeply, so deep that I don't put other girls in my mind nor my eye. She's the only one that gave me such strong feeling. I wanted to love her as much as infinite, I wanted to protect her from every harmful stuff. But, does she loves me too?

hm..

I felt happy just talking to you, I smile just by looking at you. Can we really become a pair?