fluctuation

It's damn irritating to have fluctuation, 2 things in particular. My weight and my capabilities in martial arts.

My weight always go up and down, despite I did nothing to affect it. I eat normally, bowel movement still as good as ever, whole bunch of vitamins and other minerals. My weight still goes up and down, what is fucking wrong with my weight?

Then there is my martial arts standard. Sometime I can punch very fast, sometime the speed drops. I really hate that my punching speed drops. My kicking also fluctuates a lot, some time can be high and fast, some time it's just simply like shit.

Fuck! Please, stop fluctuating, I didn't do nothing to affect it, so just fucking stop.

May be I should...

May be I should finally put a full stop to everything I did and doing, let god do the judging and decisions. I'm not sure 100%, but I think from the stuff that I did and the sincerity, I think most girls will be touched, just don't know why it doesn't affect you one way or another. I decided, I'm just gonna be your friend, if fate exists and we are meant to be together, one day we will cross path again and walked together as a couple instead of a friend or brother/sister relationship.

For now, I'm just gonna stay focus on martial arts and prepare for my career and/or uni studies. I also realized I might be able to do the 360 spinning back hook, will continue to work on that. I also realized that my palm strikes are ridiculously stronger than my punches, gonna work on that and hope to develop something that suits me.

So long never do a movie review, hope will be able to fork out time to do a review soon.